It's all wrong
It all keeps going wrong
When was the last time
I cared
I enjoyed
I smiled
I laughed
I felt something
I felt alive
?

I can take something going wrong
Bandage the wounds and carry on
Then another blow
Knocks me off balance
But I get back up

But when I'm enduring
blow after blow after blow
wound after wound after wound
disappointment
betrayal
loss
isolation
loneliness
inadequac­y

I CAN'T TAKE IT ALL

I cannot withstand perpetual suffering
I can't ******* do it
I can't remember why I'm alive
I feel dead
cold
numb
empty

AND

I

JUST

WANT

TO

END

IT

ALL