tw: self harm


i can't even think
what happened
what did you do
why?
well....
you know why...
you've been curious
you've been craving....

you just had to see it
didn't you
some mark of tragedy
because they all forgot...
they don't know what you've been through

arrughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I JUST WANT TO TEAR IT OPEN
SLIDE THE SILVER DOWN MY ARM
WATCH ME BLEED
I WANT IT
PLEASE!!!

LET ME HAVE IT...

No. You must show restraint

I'M ALWAYS RESTRAINED
LET ME HAVE THIS!!!

You cannot do this. You know it.
They'll notice. You don't want that.
It's not for them anyway.
It's for you.

please.... just let me bleed

the motion of the blade is calming
repetition so as to not go too deep
i want to play out what i do in my mind
right through the center
where the skin is most fragile
a long, smooth stroke
from wrist to elbow
a laceration

LACERATE ME
PROVE YOU'VE FELT PAIN

and anyway
so far it's my most proven method
of shutting off my mind for a bit
can't think
just a blade and a victim
please.... i want more....