i never talked to you in freshman year
did you know we became freshman six years ago?
it feels like yesterday.
but i watched.
i watched from afar, and one day
i got caught.
caught by my ex best friend,
and he told your ex girlfriend
and i wasn't allowed to talk to you after that.
i sat by you at lunch sometimes,
later in high school,
but you were always really shy.
so was i, how was i supposed to talk to you?
you're beautiful.
and i look like this.
those eyes,
they were a new beginning
a warm welcome
they were inviting and striking and full of fear
they are still like that today
greens, blues, browns
the most beautiful hazel
you can see the storm clouds when you get angry
or scared
or depressed
like when you remember him.
they're strong
and terrifying
and loving.
they're yours
and they're mine.