Trigger warning: Self harm, cutting, suicidal thoughts


I have no patience for poetry tonight
Though desperately I require its release
I can't think up metaphors
Clever phrases to express

THAT I AM NOT ALWAYS OKAY
THAT SOMETIMES I WANT TO FEEL PAIN
bring me to reality                  punish me                   i want to bleed...
THAT SOMETIMES I WANT TO DIE
i can't take this....            i can't live like this          i'm so desperate
THAT SOMETIMES I WANT TO DEFILE MYSELF
why the hell not              i'm worthless anyway        ******* hideous
THAT SOMETIMES I WANT TO ABUSE MEDICATION
what'll it do?                  you could get away....              induce a smile

I DON'T EVEN ******* GET IT
I DON'T UNDERSTAND
what is wrong with ME??

I JUST WANT SO DESPERATELY TO ACT OUT
I'M CRAVING A SWEET ESCAPE!
W H E R E   I S    M Y    E S C A P E????????????????????????????

T  E  L  L     M  E  !  !  !  !  !