crying because i don't feel like i am enough
ugly both inside and out
just sitting here thinking about how i can't do this
how i should end it all here, right now
because i'm failing all my classes
because i forgot to do the work
because i fell asleep
because i got hung up at work
because my parents told me to get a job
or it wasn't gonna work
and i can't stand to chance another day
tired of waiting to see what's next
pain pain pain and a little bit more
so tired that i take a rest
and i sleep through their calls
because i only feel the hurt
from the medicine i'm forced to take
that really doesn't work
if anything it only seems
to make everything worse
and my parents blame me for everything wrong
and how better of the earth
would be without me
and how acceptance is not something i deserve
i am tired
too tired
to try to make it work