Broken, weary, deflated, and disappointed is what I feel
about myself for all this
Your words piercing me hard like a dagger
Though truthful and deep!
Another day comes and goes without you here
it all comes to the cycle of loneliness
that I don’t want to be used to
my love for you was never a farce neither was
our relationship casual,
at least you didn’t take it that way
neither did I …..
sweet memories of us, hunt me
I dream of you
I think of you
I pray for you
I see you literally with my eyes closed
While driving I feel you near
Your voice serene and penetrating
Made a convert out of me
Can we reverse?
Make a U turn
Or like a detour?
The journey delayed but not denied..
My insensitivity injured my pride
When I hurt you
I don’t know why
I don’t understand you the way I should
Or the way you would have wanted me
The inadequacies and faults
are eating me up
I was consumed with myself
And forgot about your feelings
I don’t mean to change you
I may not have understood how you complete me
But am willing to give it a try
When you give that chance
No one can love you
The way I do
I want to show you
What I feel
In my way
That will not change how you want to be
I realized I cannot make you
Be who I want you to be
But I can learn to love
Who you are
How you are
The way you are
And still be happy
If you were able to do it for me
I can do even better for you
I will not pretend
It may be difficult
But am willing to give it a shot
Am out of this illusion
I was beside myself
And I actually thought I was being a man
I felt I will lose my manhood
If I did things in unconventional ways
You have captured my heart
I can’t love another
Never
This heart is for you and you alone
Like you said, I agree
Despite it all – I’m still yours and you’ll forever be mine
In our heart and minds
@JP Fredericks. 11/05/2013
Joel Paul Fredericks
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