i don't go to beaches anymore. they remind me of you. the sand, so comfortable to lay in but hot enough to scald my skin and i can never get it all out of my clothes, hair, mind. the sea breeze is refreshing, it clears my mind but only for a moment, soon enough i'm obsessing, i'm longing, it's all i can think of. the current of the tide threatens to drag me under, filling my lungs, my heart. i don't go to beaches anymore.