Sometimes
You gather thoughts
That you otherwise
Try to erase from
Your mind

Things that you
Should have done
Would have done
Wished had been done
Or thought may have happened...

You grow up wanting to get married
Have a white picket fence
Start a family
Be career driven
Be successful
Be stable...

Sometimes these things don’t work out
But that’s ok...
For me all these things came true except one....

Start a family...
As this still ways heavy on my mind
The possibility is still there but seems to be drifting away more with each passing day...
But to start a family doesn’t always mean having a child of your own
It means being a parental figure to others who need it
Being a guidance to your nieces and nephews
A supporter to others
Among many other things

Just because we haven’t had a child of our own (yet, maybe never)
I will always look at myself as a mother
Everything happens for a reason
Time will tell if I ever will be a mother to my own child
But I have to look at the bigger picture and tell myself
                           “I actually have been a mom for quite sometime, to many other children throughout my life”

For
that
reason
all
of
my
wishes
have
come
true.....