You are the one...
But I just didn't feel like you felt the same...I'd stare at you forever and tell you how beautiful you were...
She said she never saw you look at a girl that way...but maybe you did with her at first and it slowly died...maybe that's what was happening...you started to fill with hate...
I wanted to marry you...
I was so sure...even in such short time...
I wanted your last name some day...no rush...but the thought made me so ecstatic...I wanted to bear your child...for the first time I didnt care about gaining weight or the physical pain of birth....I literally NEVER felt that way about someone...especially that quickly. You said you loved me the first night we made love and I thought you were crazy...or joking...but I meant it when I said it...I was just scared to seem too quick.
I want to be a better person.
I am a wonderful person who makes impulsive decisions.
I never ever once thought about someone else...I could never...because you are my soul...
Never cheated.  
I just was a mean girl and didnt deserve a good guy like you...
Never will until I learn to forgive myself...and I'm so sorry I did you like that...but I can't tell you goodbye. It kills me. I want to die.
Because you'll move on quicker...you're older and want a family before you're too old to play with your kids...she is so ******* lucky...this is more of a loss for me than it is for you.
God I love you so much though.