It was the day before the holidays Cold and frail By my side my cousin stood old and pale Speak he said what lingers your mind All I could think was not of the crime But the man beside me all this time His voice so husk made it so true For years I couldn't forget the night that drew I pleaded to the sky why it had to be Little did I know what it meant to me When the morning dawned awake in my bed Looked over to her instead without dread But my brother my cousin it was all in my head I could not speak nor peak until I resolved The love I lost on my own ****** soul But beauty and mystery lies within A lesson learnt from the man of sins You see the truth is not at all what it seems Quite unexpected but well in its means For a long time I questioned why you did this to me A thought I couldn't shake let alone consume me To forget to forgive was the best thing yet Warm and cozy in my new found bed But all too late and little was said My brother my cousin I'm just about dead.