Well, I’m not too interesting, I’m actually very sad, sometimes depressing. I hide my feelings, I push them away, I’m really just scared of what people will say. I’ve gotten better, less sad. More proud of who I am. I mean it’s better than being sad.
In the family of mine, it’s hard to be acknowledged. It’s hard to understand that I’m wanted. I find myself feeling alone all the time. No one to talk to, no one to listen to me cry.
I mean, I have friends but I’m afraid I’ll be a bother. Or they will think I'm just being dumb. We all have our problems, there’s might be worse than mine. But that doesn’t mean mine doesn't ****.
I feel like my life is an awful mess. I lose too many things I love. I’ve lost my self-esteem and I think that’s what I miss the most. I miss loving myself, my true self. I miss the feeling of being happy with who I am. The feeling of being proud of who I am.
I’ve gotten better though, I promise. I don’t cry as often, which is amazing. I’ve distanced myself from the toxic friends. I smile more often and I love it.
I love when I smile, it’s such a joyful feeling. Not the fake smile I give to be nice, but the real one when I’m giggling. It reminds me that I can be happy.