I am afraid not of dying,
but of never living at all,
I will never be happy if
I cannot climb this towering wall.

Greif and loneliness weigh me down,
I have no motivation to go on,
Its hard to get up and start moving,
Because everything I love is gone.

I have no one to give me strength,
No shoulder to cry on, nowhere to rest,
I'm almost ready to give up,
I'm exhausted and I've tried my best.

I'm scared of what the future will hold,
I feel my senses beginning to numb,
My life is spiraling downward fast,
I fear the worst is yet to come.