Doesn't matter. I won't find the words, I won't find the feelings. No matter how hard I try, I was never programmed to do things right.
Maybe because they're my words, that I will never feel anything other than obsolete. I hope someone reads this and thinks I'm smart, thinks I'm special, thinks "she's neat"
Will that resolve my defeat? Doesn't matter. I am predetermined. I am programmed. I am a robot.