I was here suffering during those days, too. My life was never been so ****** up more than you know. And though I barely know how to pray anymore, I was constantly praying for you.. since it was the only thing I can do for you and I hate myself because of that. I've done almost everything in between binge-watching iyashikei anime series to psychedelia and uppers just to somehow escape from missing you because, along with my yearning to disappear,  you're always on my mind

every.
single.
day.

I was here during those days, too and posting public posts hoping that you might, maybe, spend a fraction of your spare time and read them because I wanted to let you know that I didn't really leave and I was just here willing to do anything just in case you needed anything. I was here during those days, with my brain fried, head-tripping and pretending I was beside you along the way.

I'm just here currently stuck at 5th degree like how The Script said it.