I want you to know that there is nothing impure nor anything particularly holy about you. That you are human like any other and that This is a good thing That you are right by this and you will always remain so. I want you to know that someday there will be a hand in yours. And it will be a girls and your heart will be beating so fast, your throat tight, lips trembling ever so tenderly. And none of it will be out of fear. Only feeling, only falling That first loves are possible for you, and second loves, and thirds. And what ever cowards tell you, none of this will ever be less true. I want you to know if you were wrong for such a softness then I would be that wrongness, and the pain blazing up in your chest but you aren't you never were and so instead I am the awe on your face when you see her. Instead I am the flicker of hope when at last, you let your starving heart back into your body. I will be your acceptance, your shaky breath, your relief. I want you to know love. Without constraints. Without compromise. Without running. Without ruin. love, the flowering kind the unshakable kind, the kind that makes you fearless. Weightless. I want you to know love and when like the gentlest balm, love makes its home in you- I want you to teach it to me to.