I didn't take the sleeping syrup last night
so of course I didn't sleep
My arms got heavy and my legs got stuck
I couldn't outrun the thoughts
left behind when my brain didn't remember how shut off
so I didn't sleep
But at least I got away from the codeine

I scrolled through some old pictures today
In my haze of exhaustion, I forgot that's usually a bad idea
and it struck me that
She was happy!
The girl in those pictures was happy!
I smirk and almost cough up a laugh

I'm not sure if even I know
why and when
the girl in the picture left happy behind and
Forgot how to sleep.