alone tonight
to think  
about society
and religion
I took great pains
to be  
by myself
only myself
tonight
but I
had this weight
like I had others
thoughts invade my mystical space
and I had a thought
if I can't even be alone when I try
to be
what the hell does that mean?
Is their some common
conscious a flow from person to person
we don't fully understand yet?
Or is my Karma ****** up
and I am hallucinating again?
Then the tea kettle sang
for me to take her off her hot plate
the small table was  set
with small cups on saucers and two
silver spoons
and I set down
to tea and crumpets
and a hatter made me laugh
and hobbits danced around the room
and a  girl disappeared down a rabbit hole
and resurrected an idol who promised
to return:
so common in fairy tale stories
which this is not , by gosh, just a telling of  a
tale of an evening trying
to discover truth and meanings.