My heart beats fast
as I see the change
Your change but not by choice
My pupils dilate and my
Mind is clear of what must be done
My hands shake
My stomach turns
I thank god
But
I realize
my foolishness
my arrogance
my ignorance
my selfishness
If you mean so much to me
Why do I rejoice in your sadness
I inhale poison to calm my nerves
It is then when I realize
In my rush to come to you
That every fiber of my being
tells me that you
are very important
this means something
It has to
You deny its importance
But I have been alive for far too long
to place it as coincidence
I have to believe that