Today I am hurting
I am hurting inside
With a pain I cannot bear.
And I am tired.
I am so tired
Of missing you
Of holding those sweet memories close to my heart
Because you have hurt me so
And I hate that I have
This desire
To cry.
To shed tears
For no apparent reason
Just because of this aching
Inside my heart
From a place where you used to dwell in me
From this place I made perfect just for you
How I miss
My eyes that smiled
Just from hearing your steady, unwavering voice
And I know, I was wrong...
I was wrong to put you on such a high pedestal
I heard the voice in the back of my head
Pleading me not to give you such reverence
Giving you a secret place in my heart
That belonged to Another
So much more worthy
I know I wasn't supposed to
Hold so much respect for you
And so much
Love?
Could one even call it love?

I know now that I was wrong.

But today,
Today
My heart is aching
I am forlorn
I am empty
Without you
Because the me that I saw in you is still the me I long to be
I miss her smiling eyes
And charisma
And change of thoughts because of you
I ache
I yearn
And today I am hurting
Because I miss you.