i wish
i never met you
that i left it at hello
that when you confessed how you felt
i had ignored it

i wish
i hadn't kissed your soft lips
or learned the ways you melt
felt your skin slide against mine
or felt your fingers touch me so intimately

i wish
i didn't know how you sounded when
i made you moan
that you didn't know how to
turn me into a puddle of desire

i wish
you hadn't lied to me
that you hadn't betrayed my trust
that i had been enough
i didn't make you so sad for so long

i wish
you still wanted me
that i didn't want you anymore
that i didn't crave you
we could relive our last moments together

i wish
your name didn't sting
our memories weren't tainted by lies
i didn't overthink everything
or could forget you