I cant do it anymore
some outside force is holding me prisoner
I feel I'm being dragged,pulled away from you
in a fit of rage and jealously I weep
All of my insecurities from my past resurface
I trust you but I don't trust, trust.
trust can destroy, terrorize, deflate.
here I am, still deflated from my past, my past of trusting.
My heart cries, emotions dwindle, tears fill my drowning eyes.
I am letting you go.
I am letting you leave, no.
I am pushing you away- I don't want to.
I am helpless, and unable to control. IT WONT STOP
Something has come over my mind, body, but not heart.
I want you, I am in love with you, but I can't trust you.
My Mind tells my heart to believe you'd break it
and I trust it, why should I?
I shouldn't.  
You'd never hurt me. Right?