I can feel my emotions have changed, and lingerd far from me,
Truth be told my focus has been blurred for far to long,
My words are twisted into a tight knot, i would deny it ..
My cold heart longs to go back to the fathers loving arms...
Yet my body longs to go back to wine coverd addictions...
But i rebuke that, i REFUSE to believe that i must go to addictions!
No longer will i be a slave to sin.
REJOICE, REJOICE

you break down my soul into a million pieces,
and my insecurity shows...
i run away,
searching for something more,
striving for release,
....god where are you?
she digs deep in my pain,
and she stabs me with her pride.
i tryed showing respect, but
i guess you dont understand grace...
All you wanna do,
is twist my words up....
im all alone in my bed room....
and anger rises in me,
fear rises in me...
i start throwing things,
making a reck of things out of my
pain..
........i needed you then....

My secret must be told
I can no longer keep it
Hidden in between my veins
....... Deep in my soul it's breaking me down
Release

THe righteous cry out
And the lord HEARS them
He DELIVERS them from all there troubles
The Lord is close....
To the broken hearted
And SAVES those who are
Crushed in sprit
A righteous man.....
May have many troubles
But the Lord
DELIVERS him from them all
He protects.....
All his bones
Not one of them will be broken.

Perfect peace
Surpasses
All
Understanding

After all those years, hiding my face from you,
...judging others,
bashing your character,
and letting sin drive my life...
putting my love from music and singing worship for you behind me...
After giving up on you....
all it took was one encounter from you god
to drop to my knees and relize what a deep lie i was living in...
that ive been a slave to sin for far to long...
that maybe ive forgotten who the grace God created me
to be and turned my life into *******...
the worst part is i became so blind for so long that i didnt recognize the Me ,
that God created me to be...
so i said God, after all the years i gave up on you,
and hid my heart from you,...
have you lost hope in me?...
God, oh God
is there anything you can do?...
He said,
all the times you bashed my name and gave up on me,
* I NEVER GAVE UP ON YOU!*
i love you the same as i always have...
and my joy was overwhelmed when you came back...
All the times you slipped up,
all the times youve turned your face from me,
i will never hide my face from you
... now its time, i can finally finish my work in you...

scars on my face,
my voice was never heard...it was stolen  by you...
how could you hurt me like this?
i thought you said i was yours....what happened to me being your everything?
remember when all we had to do was gaze into each others eyes
and everything was right....
how could you forget?, i remember......
you tricked me, from the very beginning,
so this is it, say goodbye babe,
cause im never gonna have one doubting thought about leaving you...

i wanna pour out my emotions all over you...
i wanna show you how much i appreciate you, how much youve been making me feel so good.
with your smile you melt me to pieces, and when i look at your eyes i feel like im lost in a great depth of something amazing..
the power of love is so **** incredible... and loving you is really all thats on my mind.
i wanna take this time we have to show you how much you mean to me
look into my eyes, ive been waiting so long....

Beloved, do not linger in your old addictions any longer!
for i know what your capable of!
Your not the lies being whispered into your heart....your addictions killing you, and if you keep going it will soon take over your mind and your heart...
turned you into something your not... How much longer will you say thats your last time?.... i am jelous for you!
come back to me!

Everybody thinks somethin,
Someones always telling me what to think,
they say walk away, but i wanna stay... But
i can think for myself,
your just holding me back when i know theres more.
theres no point in fighting with you..
i dont need you, but i love you and you keep bringing me back to you...so let me go,
just say you dont love me so i can move on, and love again.....

I need to be near you,
dont give your love away.
use it all on me, if you feel the same...
cause boy i know i dont deserve you,
but i cant help but feel this way!

For i say hear me!
doesn't it always get darkest before the sunrise?
The victory is ours!
Times of glorious triumph is ahead!
So rise up and declare happiness when times get rough, and circumstances say that your worthless, recognize that, that's the enemy, and cast out there lies.
Start seeing yourself from a heavenly prospective, NOT how your earthly experiences depict you.

Thats why i died on the cross for you,
thats why i took the crown of thorns for you,
Because i...wanted...YOU!
so you wouldn't have to be drowning in sin,
so you could live and not be afraid of the devils curses.
Thats why i said "it is finished"
I ment it...

Lost are saved,
Find their way,
At the sound,
of your Great Name
The enemy has to leave,
At the sound
of your great name,
Fear has no place in my heart,
at the sound,
of Your Great Name

Where is she? where is she when my i despritly reach for her? Emotions toss through my tear covered head. I am abandoned.... i suffer the pain.. fighting the feelings that cry through me. knowing she is not coming back.  am i not important enough? i cant fight the tears that run down my choked up face... she was apart of me..now all that's left is the remains... surrounded by regret what did i do wrong?

conflicting thoughts....
scattered in her mined.....
cant be put together...
how come you hide your face from me?
.....why are you so set in your path?
how dare you say its tougher for you..
.is it so bad
to want a relationship with my father?
  Behind you i see fear...
fear that your going to loose me,
but you wont.
I love you..
cant you see?
where do i come from?
i long for a relationship with my father..
so let me know him..
stop keeping me in *******..
let me go!