I wonder about my sister
Is she fat?
Does she have a cat?
Is her family cool?
Does she make all the boys drool?
Is she smart?
Does she have brothers who arent?
How about friends?
Will these questions ever end
Will they just bounce around my head till im dead

Is her favorite color green?
What about Aquamarine?
Is her name Stephanie?
What is her middle name?

I wish she was here
She will probaly take after our father with depression
She might have a couple more years to worry about that
I hope she doesnt wind up dead
I wish i could be with her
Maybe her family moved to ohio too
Maybe i could meet her one day

I hate my life

You judge me but then ask me why i have low selfesteem
You tell me i dont look good then wonder why second guess everything
You make me cry then ask me why
You make jokes about private stuff then act like its all fine
Im leaving and i wont come back i hate how you make me feel
Like im not good enough for you

I cant cope
Ive lost all hope
I feel like a dope
You will say nope
But all i can see is the rope

I want to die
I dont even feel alive
There is no one here to dry my tears
Im an emotional mess
I cant rest
I sleep
My i always have bad dreams
Im so far gone
I just done

Breathe in and out
Their words dont count

He gives me space
For me to breathe
I need him close
But i want him to leave
I love you dear
Dont you see
My games are just a defense baby
Ill push you away
That much is true
But baby i will always want you
Crying tears
No one knows
Ill hide them till i dont know
Why do you smile when all else is bad
Why cant i be real
Why cant i be glad

you will never understand why it hurts
you will never feel my pain
you think you know just because you did ******
you don't understand because you aren't me

Mirror mirror on the wall
Am I too short? Am I too tall?  
Mirror mirror do you care?
About my clothes, About my hair?
Mirror mirror can you see?
The perfect woman I'm obsessing to be

Too skinny, too fat,
Too frumpy when I'm sat,
Untamed messy hair
Too pale when I'm bare
Circles beneath my eyes
Out of proportion for my size
Forever appearing rough
Will I ever be good enough?

Mirror mirror are you there?
Mirror mirror you are so unaware

I go from being insanely hungry to forcing myself to eat
I go from being insanely happy to trying not to cry