Paige

Paige Feb 2018

How nice

I can see the light from a house that sits all the way across a field;
from where I'm laying in bed.
Daylight is breaking,
but I bet today is going to be grey.
I have a perfect picture frame of the field, the house in the distance now with a light on inside, from someone waking up.
A row of leafless trees in the background.
Like a Bob Ross painting really.
It's February but it's going to be warm today.
How nice.

Paige Jan 2018

Bird

I hear a bird chirping outside my window, just as the sun is about to rise.
It sounds like spring, even though there is a thin layer of snow on the ground.
I can't help but smile as I fall asleep.

Paige Jan 2018

Sunlight

My plant is dying and the basil is never going to grow.
Not one spot in my house gets decent sunlight.
January is never ending,
and we're all waiting for that W2 to come and relieve our worries.
My skin is clearing up, but the dark circles are too stubborn to go away.
It's Saturday night and I've already napped and watched about 100 YouTube videos.

Paige Jan 2018

Take it out

If you think about it..
It's kind of easy to fix your physical health because there are real things you can do to change.
Eat better, work out, go to the doctor.
But, it feels and maybe it is impossible to fix your mental health.
You can't remove your brain.
It's always in there judging, and worrying and lying and telling the truth and it never stops.
And there are days like today
where I just can't deal with it.

Paige Dec 2017

December 31

Earlier this year I felt like I was a plant that didn't get enough sunlight or water so I never got the chance to grow.
But sitting here now on the last day of the year I realize that's not true.
There have been little changes.
I grew out my natural hair color,
I purged my wardrobe over time and now every item is something I like.
I got a tattoo of a chameleon recently.. something I've talked about getting for years.
And every day I get closer to figuring myself out.
Just because nothing big or life altering happened doesn't mean I haven't grown.
And maybe a year of adjustments is just what I needed.
Who knows what the next one holds.

Paige Dec 2017

From Ohio

I'll admit it.
That evening I laid my head
on a blanket on the grass and felt safe
knowing you couldn't see my eyes watching you.
You looked over at me once and we caught each other's gaze.
But after that you didn't try again.
And that's okay.
I liked knowing you were just a few steps away even though I wasn't going to get up.

Paige Dec 2017

While looking at ornaments

Maybe I over indulge on Tv, sleep, and food because I'm lonely.
Lonely; a word that has come up in my life a lot recently.
I like to spend time by myself, I'm an introvert so that comes naturally.
But I'm missing the one person I would drop plans with myself to go see instead.
I've done that all my life.
In high school I would leave my friends just to go cruise around and smoke a bowl even for five minutes.
The only person that has my sense of humor because we have the same laugh.
Someone I have gone to for everything and expected them to do the same.
I'm sure she has her reasons but I just miss my sister.