i just want people to understand this is my ******* art i really truly appreciate everything anyone says to me honestly but nothing anyone says or does is going to change the way i am or the way i think i dont need or want anything i just need to do this for myself

What is love to you is not love to me

turning into something i never could have thought of myself

no one in your real life is going to take u seriously unless u become famous or rich when u do **** like this doesnt make your art less valuable doesnt mean your feelings mean any less

when im drunk i talk about reality

people need to start realizing that some people are just evil and their skin color/****** affiliation/gender has nothing to ******* do with it
some people are just evil and that is it

when ur trying to defeat hate with more hate

might as well bash your head into the wall until ur dead it will do as much good in the world

hurts so bad

so what if he is destroyed

ive been wasting my time on people who never deserved it for too long im doing this on my own

im going to tell my story in the way that im going to tell it

dreams feel so real and how they make me feel when i wake up, sad and afraid

no one evn close enough to understanding

i hate daytime more than anything

words mean nothing

i am not made for this world

equality only matters to people when it is in regards to their own life

she said im ruining it like i dont already know

wake up holding everything that burns u alive

she thinks i am making it hard for no reason and tells me to be happy with myself and all i dont know and everything that comes out is because i dont understand why she doesnt need me and i need her more than anything

idk whats happening

you arnt wrong and you arnt alone in feeling like ****

**** feeling anything i want to be a rock

idk if it ever can get better it doesnt seem like it at all most times all times no one knows your life or mine somethings maybe cant be fixed

U think u know what is right and what will fix my life when I jus want to die

alternate universe
hope is alive
everything I want comes first

this world is confused and ****** up not just you we are in a place where everyone trys to fill their emotional vacancy with money and success it doesnt get better as u get older it gets harder and worse idk what to say anymore idk anything

the things that make u wanna rip your face off lack of control
conflicting feelings
confusion
regret

i spent my whole life getting to be what everyone thinks u should be i had ******* everything and now i need to start over and everyone expects me to be positive and happy like it never happened

sleeping without u is horrible doesnt feel like sleeping

to drunk and high to remember problems or names

i honestly want this **** to just be over more than anything i would give anything to not care about what happens after im so tired so stressed out so sick of people and everything

mezrah treefingers walks a pious crow. every way she walks.
the forest follows.pulsing in the veins of her membrane waves. bare face hides a swarm. beaconing her ways. boiling + pouring her poisons away. skin home failed by reticent eyes. to wash away everything. black hat leopard forest. black inhaling breeze.
with eye’s how u sing

i feel really guilty but i had to say it i know he doesnt feel it at all and thinks im just going crazy its real and i know because im not mad i feel like **** for the pain it could cause him even though he wont feel it i just hope he can see the reality of what he is becoming

real life is discovering
that what u are is something
that any onewho ever loved u
cannot accept u as what u have to be
and the realization that this is the reality
and that the past is everything
and that it is never changing
and what u thought was love+reality
isnt real and doesnt mean anything
and everything u always believed
about consciousness + dreaming
was confused completely

like father like son
something i cant ever be
doesnt mean that i dont love you
just could never look at most everything the way that u see

u are completely beautiful adn so is everything that u do

******* **** money destroys everything

slave to feelings slave to life slave to hopelessness

i would have done anything for the people that i thought i loved without care for how it affected me

i will say a million things i regret before tomorrow

full of everything that matters and the world keeps trying to **** it

im telling u when this stops being real its over
and idgaf about money or **** all those fake ******* can **** my ****

if u have to think really hard about what u are writing or need to put the words poem or poetry into everything your writing your trying to be something u are not just give up you are trying to be something u want to be not something u are

sober is the worst feeling there is

dont be offended by anything im saying if u are its about u and you know it more than i do

oracle leave your windows open
out from my mind  
breathe into my heart
god went
widows vast sleep
black veil beneath the dirt
eyeless destitution
envy me a-wake
circumspect
swollen world beneath lids of glass
unable to stray  unwilling to relent

want to fix this cant fix this

**** your god and **** your flag
we’re all human in this place

i just want people to ******* think

been trying so hard for something