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i always got your back always

this is nothing anymore go to where you want to be it isnt with me it was never with me

i have something im holding maybe not reality but better than what im having its nothing this is nothing

give someone your vulnerability they will take it and forget who u are or that they asked for it in the first place
take it back and they will panic and give all their love and affection until they get what they want
then it starts over again

did things i wouldnt do said things i wouldnt say blamed myself but i should have never it just was never right for me

specifics dont matter if you are unhappy that is all you need to know

just because certain things are widely accepted as truth it doesnt make them true

so ******* tired have to keep going

fire fire and death

success
shud be measured by the height of your weirdness
and put on the hood of a lexus
so when peoeple steal that ****
and t\ry to return it
without having earned it
without ever learning from it
u can watch them walk by and laugh at them
just like they were watching u

I don’t understand people who care more about themselves than other people

this girl doesn’t love me

i need a bible manufacturer to make this book for me because i want it to be disrespectful to everything that Christianity and god stand for
and for what they have done to me and to try and ruin everything for everybody

like what is happening how is this happening

u are more than human

u win I give up

**** me

dead already so what is death

no one could love you for real you are less than human u can’t feel anything u are nothing and that’s why they told you before you are cold and uncomfortable no one will ever love u for real

apocalypse apocalypse apocalypse
who is the horse god

cursed with something I never wanted and can’t get rid of

there is nothing worse than living against the things you cant change

are two humans able to be together forever
are two humans meant to be together forever
can two humans feel what they feel now
20 years from now
when you see them
and they seem complete
ask them the last time they ******
or have they done anything recently
that they didn’t repeat
and when was the last time
they were able to breathe freely

give it time I told u you are mistaken to believe anything or anyone beside myself will choose when I die

*** do you mean

i said because real love isnt real and u will never know because u never read this and its something u cant truly feel

this is dead not physically but mentally and spiritually a corpse

u cant even ******* listen

I can be god just ask me what u want

i wish i could explain any of this im not expecting forgiveness i just need to say now what i couldnt say before to try and live

whatever u want

ready

if u really care for someone..

i dont know what to say

there is no point to this anymore

fix yourself and find what you are looking for

it isnt me never was

some people miss the whole point of everything

get into such small specifics that the point is missed completely

1800 bad drug- proof that people dont give a **** about what pills they give to people or how it affects them

this isnt about a part of anything this is about all or this is about nothing

Health care proffesionals and capitalism don’t mix

I don’t trust anyone that has a vested interest in me being sick for their own personal gain. Why would anyone

took me all this time to realize u did what u did to me was because u were never worth anything

i am just a better human being than u thats all there is to say

u always will be living in the mediocre in the painfully average and i will always be in with something far superior and closer to life

honestly disgusted that i ever tried to give you a part of myself thats the only thing i ever will regret that i didnt know myself enough to understand i deserved better than your sadistic controlling mentality

you are ******* nothing

screams seeping thru the holes in the walls
stuff them full of tshirts and pillows to try and dull the sound
how do u repeat something you never learned once
how do u forget something you never could have thought of yourself
i feel everything clinging and i just want it to go away
i cant live with whats inside of me and i cant give it away
idk how i got here idk how else to explain
there is nothing worse than living against the things you cant change

this that kind of tired u cant sleep out of

how am i even here

some people do deserve to die but it is never the people who want it more than anything