People so fake it’s unbelievable lol idk how to function with robots

things undone
cannot be undone
lack of effort
cannot be undone
you cannot change anything that you truly feel
increase or decrease the intensity
or alter the way that it will lead you
and feigning heartfelt change
thru something u could easily erase
its defeating to tell the truth
is it worse than what u already do
idk
but its safely packaged
in all the passive relapses
that remind you of what you may have been sent here to do
if i never called u anything
would u still have said those things
or was it just easier to hide behind them
and pretend we werent suffering
and live unhappily
forever and after
shotgunned by the fear
of blame or a connection
to these halflife disappearances

the saddest thing is that i know they will think its because im weak from everything they say and everything they are trying to be alone, and i know now thats something that i could never be

this time i know im right and you are the one making excuses

ive mastered the art of smiling, nodding and responding appropriately when i couldn’t give less of a ****

i have no faith in relationships and that is why its so hard to enter or to leave them

good luck to you and blessings on everything u do

this is what its like
to be dead when you are alive

i would shoot myself right now if i was able to cope with how it would affect everyone i love believe that

u always will be living in the mediocre in the painfully average and i will always be in with something far superior and closer to life

too much to ask
to give what im giving
and expect something back
words mean nothing
fire is in your past

im not afraid to die anymore
just not ready for it

some things are stupid to be upset about i think but its not like you can control it completely its what you feel so *** do people want? people to fake everything? so many people are professional fake ******* it makes me wnat to rip out my eyeballs

one heart in my life
one love in my heart

100 people reading the same 100 words guaranteed u will have 100 different perceptions

the whole point is that u are more than i am

U can’t unmake ugly

I don’t trust anyone that has a vested interest in me being sick for their own personal gain. Why would anyone

everything is symbolic

I can’t make everyone I care about happy and that’s not okay with me

i love alcohol

mental illness or mental awareness

25 years old and i feel like im molding
the carpet is bleeding empty and the ceilings are folding
everything is already living dead, at least the way that i see it
they walk and they breathe but that isnt living to me
idk what u are idk what u believe idk human idk anything
i know that every friend i ever had never deserved me
i know that i could never make peace with some of my family
i know that nothing else matters except for what ill leave
i know that alive is so empty when death is all ur feeling
i really believe in these things  so overpowered by everything
i want to believe they can exist without this cancerous feeling
i know that ive done things that you could never forgive
i know that the bible says people like me are wicked
and we all deserve to feel like this
i know ill never go to heaven if it even exists
i know ill never beg on my knees im not your ******* *****
i know ill never pray for anything or anyone because they dont need that ****
i know that i ******* hate everything that trys to fight against this
i know that no one believed in me until everyone one else did
i know that the people i love still don't believe love exists
i know that it hurts me more than anything else ever will
to put everything i ever cared about into something
for you to completely ignore it
i just want to eat  i just want to sleep i just want one ******* day
where i dont worry constantly about everyone and everything
i know ill never be what you have always wanted me to be
so ill jus sit here puking garbage until something ******* saves me

completely selfless for somethings completely self centered for others where do u draw the line

i have no bad feelings for anybody except myself

rainbow eyes lifeless skinlight
error in human
eats my heart and sins

even if there are spirits outside
No where is anywhere to go

i always got your back always

addiction is only a problem wehn you are poor

dead already so what is death

been hiding to destroying everything that i need
sitting at stoplights daydreaming unable to breath

Dont mistkae lack of trust for lack of confidence they are not the same thing

how could anyone take the life of anyone and sleep

when people cant admit they are wrong

what did u write

worry about problems
worries about perceived problems

**** that

everything i write and wrote is ufcking **** and i hate it
i hate it i hate this i hate it

doesnt need to be anything else

whatever u want

ready

this **** kills me everyday

i want to run away with u

i never wanted u to be something i couldnt loose
you lie now with a placating smile
empty words trying to convince me
that what u never proved is the truth

*** do you mean