this is our song
by the lake
with shining lights lining the deck,
though you shine much brighter.

this is citronella
on our skin
trying and failing
to keep the bugs at a distance
though you hold me closer.

this is sunset
among the clouds
the clouds that bloom not a drop of rain
though my eyes shed enough rain for the both of us.

this is a happy time
a safe moment in a flat state
in a lover's arms
a wonderful peace of mind.

I could never be happier
for a citronella sunset evening.

I compose myself before I speak
because if I don't,
I will scream.

And they never like it
if I don't use
my inside voice.

Deep, deep
beyond the darkest depths of hell
there's this fire burning
that's more heated than anything here on earth
and hotter than any love could ever burn.
Burning stronger than the throat
before tears soak all around,
giving that fire strength.
Even though it's hot enough to keep
too many people warm,
you can't trust it for it's heat
and you must leave before it engulfs you entirely.
Or it will completely consume you.
Your life.
Your loved ones.
It will burn and scar everything it touches and make empty threats to keep you in its inferno.

Beware this fire of satan.
For it cannot be trusted,
it will destroy everything in its way.
No matter how hard you plead and cry,
your words and an ocean of tears
will never put it out.

Hear my promises
and mark my words
understand that I
am completely and only yours.
No, you don't need a diamond ring
no ring to bond
no angels
to sing.
For the pain we've went through
I'd do it again
if I only knew
that I'd get you.
What an agony to think I could have missed
a beautiful life
and maybe fate
that I'm prepared to seal with a kiss.
On this day, dressed in white
I promise to love you
and to cherish you
to forever hold you tight.
I never knew about walking down the aisle
until I dreamt it,
clearly seeing you
and feeling my face break into a smile.
I never really see dad cry
but this night, and day,
I did
I saw the tears flow, happy, from his eyes.
I saw you, my perfect boy
all grown up into a well dressed man
waiting and smiling
while I was excitedly walking to you as calm as I can.
I think of my vows
though I haven't written them yet
I think of the happiness
the perfect forever that I'll get.