Nothing is the same as it was ,
I am not the same as I was ,
I will never be .

Little changes like the colour of the sky or the way the leaves grew overnight lends itself to my detailed impressions,
You are a different shade of green,
And you are a different shade of blue ,
Than you were two days ago .

While light fades and darkness grows ,
The want for change can be ceased .

I want your darkness ,
Perhaps more than your light .

I miss your smile ,
The look you would give me when you were confused yet happy,
A look that to this day my description could not do justice to ,
Now there are more reminders of you ,
Everywhere ,
I swear they are out to get me .

I miss your laugh ,
Not all the time ,
Just on those long nights when I'm sick of everyone.

But I don't miss you ,
I miss little things you did ,
Little actions ,
Little phrases ,
But not you .

You see , there's someone new .
He gives me that look ,
He has a weird laugh,
In many ways he reminds me of you and that's both comforting and terrifying ,
I am still unsure about him so please do not fret .

I promise I won't ask you to step in with this one .

I wish they changed the way they looked at me based on ,
my humour ,
my intelligence ,
my deeply caring nature ,
not based on a definition they saw one time .
But that would involve closing a screen ,
Separating themselves from an already formed idea ,
Wishing me to be abnormal rather than human .