All day, I've been looking out the window
Watching the rustling leaves
Dreaming of the outside
And wishing to sink into the wind

Even on nights when you can't muddle through
Count your blessings I tell you
Look to the sky, oh, so blue
Watch the leaves as the wind blows through
Count your blessings day and night
To keep your curses out of sight

Fill me with light
So that my tongue will cease to bite
Make me contrite
That I might fight to do right
Trying, trying everyday
To keep my demons held at bay

I was afraid
Until I shook
I was beat
Until I froze

I should have run to you
But instead I turned to sin
I thought it'd make me better
Thought it would calm my storms

But I should have known better
For it is always you
Who saves me in my nights
My healer my God
No other but You

You took away my fear
Gave me peace I didn't deserve
I never should have run from you
And I am so thankful...
You chased me even still

I walked through doors I thought were closed to me
I looked to God and said: how can this be?
Down He gazed and replied
I waited by the door did not you see?
All you had to do was knock
No need for any key
I would throw open these doors and set their latches free

Butterflies in my stomach
I scarcely can breath
Hoping nothing goes amuck
Pale, white as death
I try to hide away my fear
Though it's hard to play calm
When it's something I love so dear

I must prepare for my Shine
Quickly she approaches
I look to the sky for a sign
Now fear she encroaches
Two options set before me
I know what I want
Though unsure on my decree
My talents miss their vaunt
And I could use some esprit
Revisit an old haunt
Or stay and let it all be?