The voyage to explore
The avenues of forgiveness
Was thwarted by the
Perpetuation of the patterns
Of my nature
Bearer of rancour
Marinating in stagnation
Birthed by unremitting negativity

Unamused by life’s cruel
Sense of humour
I grudgingly gobbled up
The repulsive remains
Of a dish of revenge
I once served
The one who arouses fury.

Perched precariously
Atop a pile of cobblestones
Strung out on
Suppressed fervor
Head high in the clouds
Spiraling in the sweep
Of a whirlwind
Of momentary delusions
Doused in vague
Prospects of merriment

Remember to descend

The wastelands of reality
Might plunder
All these un-promised ends.

Heartache knew
She and I were done
And I needed was
Tranquil repose

The light of the moon
Eclipsed the shadow of earth
It’s symbolism of rebirth
Was evidence of
Possibilities yet to be

Fleeting as hope is
As Illusionary
As the departure of pain is
On that October evening
We tore what remained asunder
And cast it to the bitter winds
Sorrow breathed
It’s final breath.

Visions of wilted lilies
Lifeless raven strewn backyards
Grass robbed of it’s green
Bleeding rivers
Mayhem

Faces contorted with distress
Shrieking
Silence
Shrieking
Silence

The annihilation of bliss
To leave behind
A legacy of pain.

Ensnared in your lasso
My beloved
Dazed by the toxicity
You exude
The glorious mystique
That which you possessed
Faded eons ago
Yet I am still
Binded and blinded
By the calamitous
Hurricane
That is you

Nights we sit
Your breath
On my shoulder
Mumbling lies and filth
Feeding the disturbance
With crazed notions
Altering me

Skewed self-perception
Bleeding hope

Futile attempts
To evade our
Ruinous union
To find myself
Restrained tighter
In the grip of your claws  

Summer times you stole
Memories ought
To have been created
Laughter never felt

Death caught my scent
But I will depart another day
Standing on the edge
Of a tight rope
On borrowed courage
I won't be yours forever.

The peculiar
Transient state of feeling
Visits at night
Under darkened skies
Tucked in the Velveret air’s
Warm embrace
Only then do I have
The audacity
To wrench away
All of my inhibitions

The dreaded daylight comes
Ever so swiftly
In it’s presence
I still choke
On the almost

Cowering in limbo
Waiting for salvation
Have mercy on me,
I am no ordinary woman.