A dark cloud sorrounds my heart,
I want to turn back the clock,
Go back to how it was at the start,
Re-experience it all block for block.
I know, its not possible, but my heart longs for these times,
It aches and twists, flooding my mind with pictures long gone,
How can I hold back this train of nostalgia?
Maybe a small message is enough to quench my thirst.
A small glimmer of light that can ignite my long faded flame,
But times have changed and it is not the way it was back then,
If I push it back I may loose myself fully,
The shell finally crumbling to dust.
I could feel it slowly burn out,
My pashions slipping away from my grasp as if brushed away by a breeze.
A breeze that started off gentle, tranformed into a whirlwind and hurrled everything away, leaving nothing behind.
Now, with yet another calm season there is nothing left, all that once was, swept away by the wind.
Turning to someone has left me barren, the same feeling over and over again.
"You dont understand me".
But how can someone understand me if I dont understand myself?
What a trainwhreck of nostalgia this is.
Random 5 a.m. thoughts. Very dramatic I know, cut me some slack alright? :p