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I carry the grief of someone who no longer wishes to breathe—
as if by holding his sorrow, I could trick death into forgetting his name.
He inhales despair like prophecy, eager to fulfill it.
And the thought of him dying slowly kills me too.

What is there left to live for,
if he—so woven into the fabric of my soul—ceases to be?
He is the reason my spirit clings to this world,
yet to him, I remain a stranger.
Perhaps a friend. Maybe. A shadow at best.

A friend willing to bear his sorrow,
to drink the same poison,
to drown quietly beside him.
A friend—
a stranger.

I don’t know him,
but I know too much.
I’ve read him like scripture, page by page, for years.
Memorized the annotations of his sighs,
the margins of his silence.
Still—he does not see me.
He has not read me back.
nanarcnto 23h
A cockroach — grotesque figure.
Lurid. Spindly legs.
Appalling. Feared by many.

To **** this filthy thing is, to most, an act of mercy.
You crush it, and they applaud.
Thus are you named savior — though it was only your comfort you served.

If the same were done to a butterfly —
delicate thing of silk and light,
its wings praised like stained glass in motion —
its death would birth mourning.

And you —
you would be called a villain.

But when you crush the cockroach,
black-bodied, oil-slick, crawling through shadow,
the world does not flinch.

They applaud you.
Call it clean.

One dies in a pool of sorrow.
The other dies in silence.

And still, both only sought the same thing — life.

One spoke in beauty.
The other in ugliness.

But neither asked to be born.
Neither chose their shape.

See the difference?

You **** what offends your eye,
and call yourself righteous.

One death earns flowers.
The other earns nothing.

Perhaps this is the story:
That mercy is given to the pretty,
and the ugly are buried without names.

It does not bite.
It does not chase.
It only exists —
and for that, you spill its blood.

Who, then, is the beast?
Perfect—an absurd word.

By definition: without flaw, without defect.
But tell me—
who decides what is flaw?
Who dares to declare a thing complete
in a world forever undone?

Perfect is illusion wrapped in grace,
a silk veil drawn over something still breathing.
It speaks of endings
in a life that has only ever known motion.
A silence interrupting a symphony
still reaching for its final note.

To call something perfect
is to deny it permission to change—
to praise it into stillness.
It is not reverence,
but a soft undoing:
the kind that freezes a moment
so it may never become more.

Perfection, in its most elegant deceit,
is not truth.
It is a mirror too smooth
for anything real to hold.
I was born with Seleouth wings.
Wings they called holy —
wrought in silvered dusk,
feathers soaked in twilight,
stitched from the mourning of a dying god.
They glittered —
so they thought I was chosen.
They glowed —
so they thought I was saved.
But I was claimed.
Not crowned.
Not blessed.
Only bound.
Each plume a chain.
Each shimmer — a wound.
They do not lift me.
They devour me.
Fly, they whisper.
Soar.
Be the miracle they want to believe in.
And so I rise, again and again —
while my bones snap beneath the weight
of their expectation.
They never see the blood in my footprints.
They never hear the cracking silence in my smile.
Wings are supposed to mean freedom.
Mine are prisons dressed in gold.
They do not love me —
they love the idea that I am unbreakable.
But I am breaking.
I have always been breaking.
They gave me a relic of heaven
and carved it into my spine
like a sigil.
Like a punishment.
They say it is beautiful.
But they never carried it.
They say I am lucky.
But they never asked if I wanted it.
I am tired of being divine.
I want to be nothing.
To fall — not in disgrace —
but in choice.
I am not your angel.
I am not your savior.
I am the one who will tear these wings
from my back with my own hands,
and bleed into the dirt
until I am real.
Let them weep for the fallen.
Let them **** me — I will not worship what kills me.
But at last,
let me stand on the earth as myself —
wingless, wretched, and finally
free.
“I am the one who will tear these wings
from my back with my own hands…” -nana

— The End —