Weeds, that's what they are.
               Walking on weeds and wilted flowers.
Thorns pierce and sear through my cover
                Pricking, tearing and hurting my pride.
Stones, hard and round
                Pelted at me with no mercy at hand.
Did you call for me from across the desert?
                Maybe it's this loneliness that wants to listen to voices.
Have I wandered off too far to find my way back?
                I feel like a destitute, no creed,  no power.
This hot wind rages like a fire, interminable,
                 Ashes to dust to finally oblivion.
No, I've lost far more than I can offer
                 Only memories exist to bind me together
I've given up far too many times to even try
                  Take me Home, I cannot put one more step yonder
Take me Homeward bound, oh swirling wind
                   Just take me Home.

I lay down in my bed
It's been a long day
I pull my knee's inward
and let out a sigh

I stare at the ring on my finger
the one you gave to me
I hold it and twist it in my fingers
until i have examined every color, every butterfly.

I close my eyes and clench my necklace
I trace the shape of the turtle with my figertips
I feel the silver in my hands
and remember when it was in yours

When I close my eyes a tear runs down my cheek
A tear of joy and sadness
Your sweet memory dances in my mind
Your love pierces through my heart

I miss you, I love you
exhaustion overwhelms me
I am ready to dream of you
Until I finally get to see you

Sweet dreams my love.

Here I lie, broken and shattered, thinking what difference would it make if I die
You think I am giving up on life without a try?

I haven't accepted my desolation and misery without a fight,
I just realised that at the end of this tunnel is no light

I've played out my cards, I have used every trick in the book,
The world has simply lost its colour, I wish you could look

It's like someone flips a coin and nothing seems right,
I am drained, I no longer have the instinct to fight.

I strived too hard to find the purpose of my existence but failed,
The boat which heads for a happy life has already sailed.

Glaring vacantly into the ceiling, I am wondering what's true,
I need to stop reliving my past to settle a life without you.

It's not easy to forget all and take a new start,
With all those memories I planted in the soil of my heart.

I had painted a whole life with you under my eyelid,
And it's just as if I am leaving a storybook in the mid.

You have become another shard in my brain that aches me,
I was a blind fool misled by your simpler of gestures but now I can see.

At times, I wish I knew the art of lying like you so,
I could lie to myself that, I don't love you anymore.

Times changed,
Feelings changed,
We changed,
Our destinations changed
                      But, why does my heart still beat the same way when I see you?  
                      Why does every love song still remind me of you?
                      Why are you the only one to cross my mind whenever I think of HAPPINESS?

a perfect half hour drive
with a perfect sunset keeping me high
and a perfect soundtrack buzzing
in my perfect battered car
down a perfect country lane
lined with green waves
and soft bluebells
smudging the hard lines of winter away
the air is still cold
but this evening is too perfect
to notice
or care
and i realise i have been driving
with a smile greeting stranger's stares.