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NINI Jul 2019
but what if you leave
forbidden thoughts
filled with pain

where does it dwell
grief and sorrow
for it doesnt go away

leave me alone
a sense of safety
lonely, with restrictions

to love freely
what more i need
once to escape

these dreams filled with
lost teardrops
on your pillow

so much i love
so much i fear
my everything

to seperate

a child ripped away
from his mother
into the dark

falling into the hands
of a lost soul
my love, your playfield

i was your angel
with an ocean of love
but you wanted all the seas

the face of another woman
heartbreaks, goodbyes
again i dont survive

so a new heart with walls
who would be able to
break them down

all the protection, cameras
like suspected terrorism
now i regret

make me forget
what is pain, fear
lift me from the past

fighting forever to escape
a selfconstructed
prison of love
NINI Jan 2015
don't we dare anymore
to have a simple face to face
is it really that hard for you
to open up in an empty place

because i'm located there
can be your empty place
to everyone, always fair
just rather not followed by

sheeps
NINI Mar 2014
the shower is my nation
the shower is not my bath
the shower is my salvation
when I have lost my path

the shower is warm
the shower is wet
the shower, like a storm
sometimes makes me sweat

the shower is my nation
he does not dare to frown
he stops all of my frustration
and knows to calm me down
NINI Jun 2017
oh how i envy him
no head full of thoughts
tiresome emotions
and sigh, and sights
overthinking human beings
in the beautiful moonlight
something flies over
a screaming owl in the night
for he has found a comfortable place
and the clock is ticking through
the running water of the river
but still he's dominating
silence
oh how i envy you
NINI Jun 2016
let it fall down
a bookcase on my head
like thunder
it's everywhere
the chaos
a raging wind
the pressure from above
while i lie there
down on the ground
terrified and gone
NINI Nov 2019
responsabilidad y preocupación
dos cosas con su origen amor
no pueden encontrar un lugar
el cielo, la tierra pide atención
pero cada vez está rechazado
NINI Jul 5
no quiero que enamores
necesito seguir en paz
me vas a dar y mostrar
pero al final, ignorar

si solo sabes tomar
no esperas nada
- no espero nada
al final sí somos

todos iguales, humanos
y tus hechos dolorosos
todo esta estudiado
planificado, causado por...

te entiendo
aprendi

todo se normaliza
bueno y malo
pero ya no me toca
ya no soy - solo triste

que sigue al otro
para dañar - su silencio
que el mundo gira asi
duele, solo un poco

ser empatica
dime sí
NINI 6d
lo que puede provocar un límite
en una mente oscura como la noche
mi luz nunca bastó
para encender la suya

difamo mi nombre
como si buscara guerra,
cuando fuiste el quien huyó
ante un pedido crucial

seguridad para los dos

adelanto un dolor
que nunca tuvo que existir
provoco un dolor
con nombre de rechazo

rechazándote a si mismo

triste, estoy
que ya no me vea
como un refugio
que ya no confia

y ahora solo responda
con palabras vacias
palabras que hieren
con intención

como estás?

te cuento lo que duele
te cuento la verdad
desde la confianza
porque merezco seguridad

pero me regalaste lo opuesto
no entiendes aún
que no era desprecio
ni castigo - que no todo gira en torno a ti

lo que viste era respeto
pero hacia mi

y esto es todo
NINI Mar 2014
didn't know each other
very well

source of love
happy through hell

what the ****
was your problem
our problem

was it me
against your mind

was it the fakeness
you couldn't hide

discovered today
the aching pain

to think
you used your brain

but i, not too smart
i used my stupid heart

to believe in my dreams
come alive and please

but i forgot, not everyone
is ready to believe
in dreams
NINI Jul 5
sonreí
sin responder

he muerto diez veces
antes de conocerte
caí, subí y reconoci
reconozco

marqué límites
que llamaron rechazo
pero el rechazo
hablaba más de su herida

y esa herida
no quería ser reclamada
no quiere
en mi vida no

no podia ser
por causas
no poder ver
cansancio y destrucion

en mi vida si
motivacion y construcion
palabras ocultas
imaginas?

en tu vida
con este puñal en el corazon
NINI Mar 2014
he left me speechless
that day
a way
none has ever left me
NINI Aug 2017
vluchtende mensen
grijpend
naar een pilletje
medicijnen
voor balans, tegen het kwijnen
een fles wijn
gewoon
om, voor de verandering,
eens met jezelf te zijn
het heil zoekend
in een grote groep vrienden
even niet bepalen
laat anderen de beslissing maken
een joint misschien?
zelfconfrontatie gaat me raken
piekeren
ik gok liever voor tien
een kameraad vierentwintigzeven
om mijn innerlijke stem te ontwaken
God zeg me, wie ik ben, waar ik sta
stop het nou maar onder het laken
ik zelf heb al vaak genoeg geprobeerd
het te weten, te weten waar ik ga
op de langertermijn
nog steeds niet in balans
gek he?
als we blijven vluchten van onze dans
het hoofd bieden aan een eigen kans
ver weg in het duister
nog wel
en dan
*** voel jij je weer licht?
ben je dan ook werkelijk in
evenwicht?
of houd je het masker voor
om meer te krijgen
iets van gehoor
met alle prikkels en falen
vrijheid en eenzaamheid
toppen en dalen
laat mij
het allemaal lekker zelf bepalen
zodat ik kan zeggen
dit ben ik
zonder die ergens anders te halen
arme mensen, voor de verandering
kom op de proppen
met eigen verhalen
NINI Sep 2018
run around in the rain
acid rain
in a black planet
untouchable
chaos all around me
tsunami, flood
like a bucket of sand
bilateral people
attract and blow away
the wind in my back
strength of past
emotion, control
what is it worth
takes its toll
chaos all around me
incomprehensible
complex self
just being
running, around
breathing fresh air
still and unwanted
i hold my breath
acid heart
in a black planet
NINI May 2015
zo lang vechten
iets om te hechten
geef mijn mijn rechten
terug

leef
leven
recht om te leven
zonder streven

vrouw zonder einde
een punt in de zin
met tegenzin
de waanzin
NINI Sep 2023
you can do it
thunder
ignite the rain
wash it all away
NINI Mar 2014
(Lyrics, written for the Irian band Red Tape Reflection)

*black is the smoke
we've blown into the air
it fades out
like the persons
around me

this is the last time of
torture and pain
strong we will stand
in life and in dreams

come closer
to feel
this heart isn’t so real
we’re born to be alone

acceptance

this is the last time of
torture and pain
strong we will stand
in life and in dreams

bleed to be born
be born to bleed

it stops
where people screamed
right into the faces

right into the faces
of stronger men
NINI Sep 2017
my shadow standing
in the light of the moon
straight and strong

i can not breathe
in a suffocating world
i will breathe
in a suffocating world

pluche and music
hold me tight, hold on
to all and everything
be forgotten
my soul
be
my soul
breathe
for a breath can let go
understand
a shadow can't
NINI Dec 2014
some people are like wounded animals
completely damaged
may God know why

and you shouldn't let them suffer
these wounded animals
no.. they should die
NINI Sep 2017
bet you just didn't love me
but instead you told me
you want something
or something else
it all goes so easy
too easy i guess
one step forward
one step back
and gone, it is
sundaymorning
without a kiss
it's strange that we exist
but we are not there
the feelings, the loss
all left soon enough
everything gone
and i should be happy
to reach for the nothing
the afterlife of myself
like my invisible dreams
there's much more to see
bet there's more than it seems
NINI Jun 2016
slowly riding in the wind
the black hair of my horse
against a meaningless body
breaking through the night
as the stars watch over us
but the horse starts to sink
into this swamp of sand
with its hot burning surface
leaving me behind
in a peaceful silent darkness
NINI Mar 2014
mesmo se você nao fala
desculpa, mas você me faz feliz

e sim, eu sei
estamos sempre tão longe
como a distância da galáxia
talvez longe demais

mas você me dá esse sentimento
cada vez que uma e outra vez

talvez seja impossível
um outro sonho perdido
talvez seja possível
se nos ambos são fortes

faz o que quiser
viva a sua vida
como será viver
de qualquer maneira
te amo
NINI Mar 2014
i want your head in my arms
so you’ll never leave me
i want you by my side
so you’d believe me

i want you to kiss my face
in the name of love
i want you to open yourself
and keep me there save

show me you’re not just a dream
squeeze my cheeks and tell me
you’re everything i’ve ever seen

i’m nothing here without you
and i want to know every little thing
you’re living in my heart now
so i hope you’d like to stay darling
NINI Mar 2015
from out of this sickbed
i put my heart on the floor
take it break it smash it fake it
because i don't need it no more

it's heavy, locked and loaded
and doesn't belong to me
i'm tired of myself these days
waiting for angels to be free

they would like to walk with you
feeling sorry for the other side
i can still hear them fighting
playing seek and hide
NINI Mar 2014
beautiful arms, where've you been?
i knew we were still together
you, me and nobody else
you, me forever

how do you let your arms be so beautiful
they seem so blue, though they're grey
some black plants grow on the bottom
don't wash away

your cold skin looks wide and clear to me
some salt water drops down upon your chest
to mix them, with the flow

let me drown into your arms, drown
to feel an ocean of sorrow
NINI Nov 2014
sometimes i wish i could be a man
that man wearing his dark, long coat
like a detective, his lacquered shoes
ticking on the frozen pavements

the full moon causes a shadow
that follows him, until the sun rises
he searched for something, examined
the entire night, still he couldn't find

..

he couldn't find it in the city and also
he couldn't find it outside in the fields
maybe the other night he should change
place, on the inside of his black coat

the gun he was wearing, inside his body
he would throw it away if only
a woman came on his path and then
proved his security, safety of existence

that it exists.. so many guns, we use
to keep hold on our insecurities
to stay cool but cold, to our fellow creatures
that it exists.. the hidden power, of love
NINI Mar 2014
you rather play the game alone
left me behind to act like a stone
so i’ll tell you, i can’t care less
my head has always been a mess

now all the feelings are lost
because of wondering who i may trust
i wish i could feel, some love or pain
but it’s like i’m hoping in vain
NINI Apr 2015
still angry to see
how these mofos
damaged me
apparently
i never noticed
the sandpaper
my sacrifice
or ''Not another victim (I've always been the man)'' until I lost my muscles and heavy weight; they turned into feathers and so I fell from the staircase like a new born baby, falling and flying into the arms of a beautiful full-grown woman who whispered in my little ear 'Beware Beware' then she returned into the shadow.. and I remained alone.
NINI Aug 2015
sometimes it feels like i'm the one
and all the worry has a reason
i should do something here
something senseful
across the border
over the line
but it's all such a haze
can't see through my eyes
what's happening
maybe someone else can see
help me
the questions of life
i don't belong because
the most people don't let me go
and didn't let me.. so there i go
back into the closet of thoughts
there should be something more
can't believe i'm wrong
or this feeling wouldn't exist
at least not this strong
why am i here?
NINI Oct 2014
serious
he said

why so serious
they asked

meanwhile mysterious
i know you like it, humans

my eyes flirt with every eye
without knowing

without realizing
i'm searching for trustable eyes

and why so serious
if that's the only way to reach a soul
NINI Jul 2020
cielo lleno de luces
una obra de arte
como tu
NINI Nov 2024
no te merecen
mi flor
si no te ven
ven
y sabras
que es aprecio

este mundo no
no esta hecho para flores
fragil como satin
en un invierno
sin fin
queda frio

toma ya
mi mano, flor
no dudes mas

que vamos
al campo
lejano

alla
donde
pertenecemos
NINI Jul 2017
times of insecurity
say goodbye to the past
where all was easy
always easier
to walk away

feelings, what do i feel
what do you feel
do i even feel?
something
oh, hey, i feel pain

but where are the tears?
a lack of acknowledge
doubt, like an old friend
i've known myself for so long
maybe just not very well

and it's scary, i know
it hurts to be

the one behind me
in the mirror i can't see
still looking for a way
to confront myself
with me
NINI 6d
*** meer onkruid uit de grond wordt gerukt
meer ruimte voor een rijke bloementuin
waar haar kleuren worden geplukt
NINI Jun 2015
and then finally the rain
tears locked up inside
broken days of pain
thanks to my heavy heart
the moon and the wine
i'm getting so tired of
this dark poison of mine
now the snakes are gone
it seems too late..

she's tired, can't even sleep
the morning serves her
a new day to try
another day in vain
she is so tired of trying
but still dreaming to gain
total comprehension
no need for certain words
and lying dreams

dreaming dreams of an end
the end of the everlack
i feel a lot but it's stucked..
shall i ever have words?
and enough tears..
shall they ever leave me?
NINI Jun 28
In waves they come
In waves they go
Pain isn't worth it
In today's freakshow
NINI Mar 2018
niet binnen de lijntjes
maar er buiten
wat vind ik fijn
ik, wie ben ik
prioriteiten
van binnen
van buiten
NINI Oct 2017
stuck in a prison of pain
my hands touch the bars
a little cage i find myself in
i hear something far away
****** sound of laugther
****** lies in my face
all the people seem so happy
you and your new lover
it all made me sick and tired
now the questions arise
guess my time has expired
my hands touch my ears
this life is such a dead end
what have i done wrong
why do i have to be strong
in a prison i don't belong
i crawl back and think it all over again
no more writing about you on the wall
no more other people to break my fall
the gates of hell are opened for me
maybe they want me back
maybe they want me just to see
the me has been taken from me
and i should go in to find
i embrace the darkness
i cry to clear my mind
in the prison of pain
it are my own hands that bind
NINI Jul 20
queria salvarte de mi
sabia que veras el sol
pero este calor no es suficiente
tambien tiene que controlar el fuente

la necesidad de amor
dar y recibir, consuelo
pero uno siempre exige mas
si no cree que lo merece - amor nunca te das

es lindo quererme, cuidarme
es mas lindo verte quererte
pero ya ni te importa
si duele a lo demas

un corazon *****
no se deja ayudar a latar otra vez
y ahora sin motivacion, sin empatia
te dije, no te vas - solo por no poder ser mia

como si nada, otra vez
desapareciste en tu nube oscura
sin pensar ya ha decidido obscura
quieres salvarme de ti
NINI Sep 2024
a trail of glitter
a heart of gold
a mouth so bitter
in a world so cold
NINI Oct 2024
don't search for love
in places where you lost it

where did I lose love?
how? by losing myself

lay your empathy bare
let it be used, then abused

shattered

no limits, crossing borders
a certain frame around me

weakness

let them all lose me

MIS NECESIDADES
MIS DESEOS
MI VALOR

SIN TU VALIDACION
SIN MIEDO
SOLEDAD

and what else

who am i?
what do i feel?
what do we want?

don't accept no **** no more
NINI 6d
no me culpas
por ya no querer ser
esta persona salvadora
si me costo mi vida
mia... y mi poder

solo soy asi
porque ahora se
mantener este poder
y otros que no quieren crecer
no me culpan

nunca mas
solo por poder sentir dolor
y querer ayudar
lo demas, evitando mejorar
no me culpa

nunca me sentire culpable
por querer amor
NINI Feb 2015
de maan streelt mijn naakte huid
teder en zacht
net of iemand op mij wacht
daar in het hoekje van het natte dakraam
ver weg
schijnt toch zo voldaan

en al is haar blanke gloed
slechts een reflectie van
een verdoofd licht
zo veel die reflectie mij kan schenken
want ook de maan heeft meer dan één gezicht

's nachts toont ze soms bescheiden een lach
wachtend op de overname van de zon
wachtend op een nieuwe dag
NINI Jul 5
Een knuffel zo hard
dat hij zijn hart niet meer voelde
Even weg van die druk
oxytocine is wat hij bedoelde

Een blik, een lach
maar een terugkomende pijn
In zijn vermoeide ogen
is het onrustig, niet fijn

Iedereen rent weg
en hij rent naar zijn schaduw
Laat geen licht meer toe
maar misschien gauw

Ik blijf erbij kijken
al is het niet genoeg
Vertrouwen in leegte
waar de donder insloeg

Hij zag het licht
maar gemengd met bloed
Wat kan ik nog zeggen
Dit is echt - ik ben goed
NINI Dec 2024
la gente ya no escucha
el susurro del viento
ya no observa
lo demás

solo nota a sí misma
pero perdida
en su reflejo, un eco vacío
grita sin saber

el ego, y yo
apaga como un velo
todo que pasa, pasa
sin ser visto
NINI Nov 2020
dead passion
unnecessary pain
but who
is the one to blame

so sensitive
it makes me sick
the non response
a skin so thick

what happens
on the other side of the wall?
or are you waiting
for me
for us
to fall
NINI Dec 2014
me and the sea
my best friend and enemy
two times a day, we sing in ebb and flow
pulling everyone
down below
NINI Oct 2014
her heart is like a candlelight
dancing in the wind
he pushes his lips together
and she falls down, as he sinned
NINI Dec 2014
it’s funny
how people lie
to themselves
and keep lying
while blaming

something
someone

(what)else
NINI Dec 2014
the skin of my body
is frozen
my sky is blue
the wound in my body
is bleeding
where are you?
Yes
NINI Nov 2015
Yes
and i'm alone in bed again
thinking about your face
the tranquility of it
i've enjoyed so much

your tired body
sunken in the nest
heavy eyelids
sleeping through chaos

so peaceful
so hopeful

just a single touch
would break the silence
of this warm place
your dreamy face

i wouldn't touch
not even embrace
to keep it in my memory
never to erase
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