I caught my first glimpse of what they call heaven
aboard my ship in the sea of the sky
Never have I been more sure of anything
Than I was of my desire to fly
Light encompassed me, from fear I was set free.
As I floated, drifting ever so softly
nothing was of the essence, for I lived above it all
until the day that I'd fall, I lived above it all.

He'll never know
the moment I heard the door closed
I left a present for him
In the form of tears on the doorstep

He'll never know
I thought of him today
I spend my nights with someone
Else that I care for, but not as much as him

He'll never know
That I smile at the sound of his voice
And that the butterflies inside
Are just begging to be let out

He'll never know
How much I wish I was her
And how much I wonder what
would be different if I had stayed

He'll never know
How often I want to feel his comfort
I still sleep the same
As I did when I shared his bed

He'll never know
Just how much of an echo
his presence leaves in me
and how much it hurts to miss him

He'll never know
Just how much I'd give up for him
And how helpless I feel when I think
of the possibilities

He'll never know
Why I was so eager to be with him
In hope that somehow I'd have
a reason to stay

He'll never know
How much it hurt to see the color
Fade from his eyes when
Our lips touched the last time

He'll never know
When his fingers laced with mine
He was not the only one
Who felt at home

I miss your lips against my lips.
Your hands on my hands.
My knees on your knees.
My nose on your neck.
Your eyes and my eyes.
And that being ok.

Sleep?
I miss sleep.
With you.
I miss hugging
and laughing
and being
with  you.

I miss your lips against my lips.
I miss your hips against my hips.
I miss your face and my face.
and our noses inches apart.
And our eyes.
And our hands.
Inches.

Inches.
Touching
inches
at a time.
Slowly.
Barely.

I miss your lips against my lips.
Your hands on my hands.
Your eyes and my eyes.

Can I come over?

No.
No hope of me going back.
I won’t go “back” for anyone.
Anyone.
I refuse.
And it would be no use,
me turning to a pillar of salt
for you.
I can’t turn around – it’s too late.
You may call it fate
or blame the choices we’ve made,
but I’d rather say
I’m pressing onward, facing forward,
because, friend, you know hope never lags behind.
It’s what’s ahead, in front – it is the way,
and I’m walking it.
If intersections are in our future,
I can promise it won’t be because I went back,
but because you went forward
and finally caught up.

Let the wind blow my memories away
Let the water wash my thoughts
Let the fire burn my dreams
As the earth takes what’s left of me

If you need a lover,
count on me no longer.
I've got to let you go,
I've got to become stronger.

Please don't call me baby,
please don't call me dear.
there's no more going back,
my path is finally clear.

Please forget the memories,
please forget the flame.
but if you need a friend,
please don't forget my name.

Footprints may no longer be visible, but they are never erased
To move forward you must first leave and it seems my feet are glued to the floor
I know what's best and i know what i need, but its hard to accept that none of that involves you
If you're no longer mine what am i so afraid to lose?
Maybe because everything i do is in someway for you

I didn't break my own heart but i handed you the hammer
So many things made up in my mind are a result of lingering hope and vague words

Under my feet is air made of bricks, pulling me down making me weak for you
I find myself repeating like a broken tune
I know this means nothing to you, but i remind myself that it is one more minute i am spending time with you

I am counting every kiss, yet keeping my distance
You make my heart skip a beat, yet rip it in two simultaneously

Each and every time i move on there is not a day that i don't think of you
I end a relationship and instead of hurting over them, i fall back into hurting over you

i constantly excuse your intentions
i give into my pretendings, which forgive you each time without me knowing,
they melt my heart to stone.

Every single time I turn around to leave i feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
So desperately I try to link it with my head, but instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me i look past pain once again

I see through your charm, but your smile sparkles like a ray of sunlight through water
And you can find me like butter on the floor

Following my heart leads me down the same pointless path
Yet i can't help but look for a sign pointing me in the right direction

Why do you steal my hand whenever I'm standing my own ground
You build me up, then leave me dead

How can you make someone feel your love when you're the only one still in it
3 years and still crazy for you

I feel an emptiness, you see
It caresses and surrounds me
All I feel is that you’re gone
The memory of you dawns
I see your face, I see your lips
I see your walk, I see your hips
I see your figure shining through
And now you’ve gotten me so glued
You dance around in my mind
While the reality lies

Let me sleep
I want you to be near me
Let me dream
That’s where I want to be
Because if in my dreams is where you are
Then let me sleep forever
Let me sleep
Let me sleep

When I sleep you’re in my mind
The memory of you locked in time
Please don’t leave me here alone.
Why’d you go? Babe, why’d you go?
I’m running so fast to catch you
But your hand is slipping thru
I turn around and there I see
Nothing but the air and me
Return to me just as soon
And listen as I sing this tune

Let me sleep
I want you to be near me
Let me dream
That’s where I want to be
Because if in my dreams is where you are
Then let me sleep forever
Let me sleep
Let me sleep

Run to me, I’ll catch you
Sing to me, I’ll let you
Be who you are with me
We’re bigger than the sea
You’re the best **** thing
Take that ball of string
Wrap me close and wrap me tight
Break away, you know you might

Let me sleep
I want you to be near me
Let me dream
That’s where I want to be
Because if in my dreams is where you are
Then let me sleep forever
Let me sleep
Let me sleep