the scent of grass
rush of blood
adrenaline running
trembling nerves
the stench of fear stings

the missile soars
poised to ****
life to one
death to the other
tense binary

Sometimes I stop and think
You're so young, so full of joy
What would you know about
The bitterness of this life

So carefree you
Sway as you walk
Never doubting the dark corners
Barreling your way through

Then I stop and think
Are we meant for each other
Or will we break together?
Floating around in pieces?

What would you know of hate?
You've barely learnt to love
Who's to say your patience won't wane
When the moon shrinks smaller?

Today I turn 20
But my heart feels 80
With a face maybe 18
My mind runs on 90

I need but 3 seconds to cry
2 hours to stop
2 minutes to write
Maybe a lifetime to forget

And 20 seconds later...
The memories come flooding back.

Here I am sitting in a bus
Something so everyday
Motion in tandem
Here where thoughts stray
Where everyone drowns
In thoughts maybe not their own
Here where no eyes meet
But all eyes see
Everyone speaks without a word
Here we are, all in a bus.

Must you go - can't you stay?
And never look back - didn't you say?
Rosy and bright - the future looked that night,
Keys clanging in your pocket as we walked on by
X’s and O’s left behind

My greatest not-so-great regret
Washing your scent off me
Makes my heart ache daily.

I see you when you're not around
You're everywhere to me
Just like that once-popular song.

You may doubt that I really care
Oh but I do, so much that it scares me
Every night I lay awake.

My greatest not-so-great regret,
I shall share with you my latest great regret;
I don't have you all to myself...no...not yet.

A lone flower stays
Where the broken vase lays
Busking in the sun's dying rays.
Will it thrive or will it die?
The leaves look to the light
Petals gently curling in sight

As the sun sets
There is no room left for regret
As with all that's said and done
It is not uncertain
It cannot be undone
Don't look back and carry on.

As the flower dies,  
The stars watch the moon rise.