The distance between myself & my doubts caused me to crumble & fall. Heart breaks when I fall off. Fell in love with the broken promises, the hate, & my insecurities drowning my eyes. I think I'd rather lose it all. My words didn't break the fall. I've been lying from words, feels, and beds. Still managed to be honest with my regrets. Please allow these inner demons to be forgiven but not forgotten. I've learned a lot from a darker side of my soul. Tell me I'm not enough. My genuine over protection will show it all. I'll isolate myself to avoid feeling at defeat. Cry myself to sleep, kicking the tears I've drowned myself deep. Tell me all I got to do is stand on my feet. I'm a long way from myself! I wish to have the love I crave because I know it'll help. Realizing I'm avoiding hell. You don't know me at all. Love was never the words I've heard, but it was body languages that took away the hurt. When it's quiet enough, I found the truth that didn't require any words. How often was I loved? That's a observation I'd really have to make. Dealt with so much alone, forgotten what it's like to reach out. Lately I've isolated where it's cold, the chills brought me to a quieter place.  A place where I feel safe.