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I don't know
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Little rain falls

California is on fire

//

It is hard to breath

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Even if you know             Meditation

You think you are dying

//

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My own little girl !

I think I know

Why you are always crying

( I too am always crying )

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Weak

Ashamed

Lonely

Afraid



Soon

****** and Madness

Shall be released



Feeling so inhuman

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//

What is love ?

;;

Let's really do
It

And find out
How much self hate
does it take?
to take that razor
and slice open your skin

How much self hate
does it take
to be desperate
for the end

how much slef hate
does it take
to want to take
your last breath

how much
does it take
from your soul
every time
that blades brakes the surface
of your beautiful skin

How much
does it take
to walk around
acting fine
when really
your head is pounding
your hands are shaking
eyes are tired
from loss of sleep.

How much
does it take
to close your eyes
and finally sleep?
 Sep 2015 Storm Raven
RF
Gay
 Sep 2015 Storm Raven
RF
Gay
If I wasn't gay would people care?
Would they actually let me breath the same air?
Could I actually go to school,
without people being so cruel?
Could I live in a world with no hate?
Maybe people would love me if I was straight.
It's not as easy as people think.
I can't just go to a shrink.
I didn't choose to be this way.
You really think I'd want to be gay?
I don't want attention,
I don't want fame.
This isn't some sort of game.
I am who I am and thats okay.
Most people don't see it that way.
I only wish I could be the same.
To have a wedding and it not be shamed.
I want to have kids and not be judged.
I don't want my reputation smudged.
But apparently I'm different now.
Sick in the head somehow.
Therapy and shock treatment for something that can't be fixed.
How did I get put into this mix?
Toxic and tragic,
that's my life.  
It's like I was stabbed in the back with a knife.
I'm gay,
what's wrong with that?
I get treated like some rat.
Using your holy books and your religion.
To fight against something that makes no difference.
I want to be a human not a punching bag.
Always getting called a ***.
Let that word have power and it gets to you.
But that words as good as whatever is stuck to the bottom of my shoe.
I love being this way.
I don't care what you say.
 Sep 2015 Storm Raven
arham
Fluid
 Sep 2015 Storm Raven
samantha
Most days I wonder what life would be like watching you grow
Yet it is too painful to bear this thought constantly at flow
A gift I could not keep
A precious pearl kept hidden in the deep
I was scared and afraid of what your life would be
If you stayed in my care, oh if only you see
It was my only choice
My only source of voice
I didn't have you through love
I was forced
I was pushed
I was a caged dove
But nothing can comprehend this feeling of guilt
The years of agony and suffering that has been built
If I ever get to see you again
I don't know what I'll say
Praying for your forgiveness
Grows heavier each and everyday
These never ending thoughts overwhelming my mind
Like travelling down a road with no exit signs
I hope you understand
I hope you believe
That I was not able to give you
The life you could of had
I hope you can forgive
A young mother's painful mistake
Just know I always love you
I'm sorry baby boy
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