I wonder, What you think at night... When in my arms he holds you tight.                                                 I wonder, If you feel my lips... When she kisses below your hips.                                                            ­      I wonder, If you know-- That I cry... because I know that, U live a lie.                                                          I wonder, If he knows you well... When there're many secrets you don't tell.                                              I wonder, If she ever knew... That you sexed-- Him, Me, and Her too.                                                          I wonder, If you could tell... That I'm like you... and wish  you well.                                             I wonder, When I touched your lips... Did you feel my or his finger tips.                                                     I wonder, When I was inside... was it him or you I did ride.                                                            ­                All- Night... within your sugar walls, Songs of passion--- Fire falls.                                                           ­                                                     I wonder, When... You -She does taste... can she see-- His or My face.                                                      How did you think, that I couldn't tell... When on you... their scent I could smell?                                 I wonder, If they knew it too... When we decided to stay with you?                                                          I wonder, If this was meant to be: U- I- He- and She!

Didn't mean to ****... Two to the grill, so surreal! Didn't want to take a life... but you just don't sleep... with your best-friend's wife!! That's how we handle it.. down in the delta... Love is stronger than pride and a little lie... might cost you shelter. Well, I wasn't trying to take his life... gassed-up the bed and used a match to start a light. Wow! How, he did burn... He beat me for the last time... He got what he earned. That's how, we do it down in the delta... Cold water runs up, when secrets blow your shelter. Wasn't aiming to take a life... Just didn't know, she was his wife. Girl....! Walked-Up, and slapped the hell-out-of-me... talking bout the man, I had didn't belong to me. I... shot her-- before I knew... then I went across town and shot him too. That's how, we do it down in the delta... Eye for an eye, straight shots...Helter Skelter....Down.... Down in the Delta.

If, I were your woman and you were my man.... I feel like I've heard this before...Oh-Yeah! It's from that. sad song ... where the man chooses his wife...over his *****. She was pleading her case... offering things--- he didn't deserve and he still went back to wiffy...leaving her standing out on the curb. Were we listening? Did, She listen to herself? Why! Would  you give your all to a man... Who belonged to someone else? I mean, We got caught-up...listening to her groove, it was soulful and ****... some of us--- even talked about ole-dude. Saying, stuff like-- he needs to stay with her... she loves him and treats him right! I guess that, We were blinded by the fact...He already had a wife. When you chose to settle for half a man or half anyone at all... What, you end-up-with is nothing but, a good reason for you to fall. Why! Give, all of yourself for half of someone else.... and not expect yourself to fall? Cause half of anyone....is really- nothing at all! If, I were your woman and you were my man! That was the sh-- back in the day... now it's just a side-chicks  anthem... for a game that, only fools play.He was such a part of her and he didn't even know-it....I believe he knew- just...didn't care enough: to show it. She was dreaming out-loud for another woman's man..Maybe, his wife could have helped her to understand: that she... was better without- him in her life.  Try, Knowing about the other woman and being his wife. { If, I Were Your Woman}

Her eyes were as warm as a mid-summers day, filled with love and compassion. Her  neck was as stately as the Empire State in all it's glory, adorned with shields of ten thousand heroes. Her breast were like twin lion cubs playing in the beautiful plains of the En-geti, perfect in every-way... they were fierce. Her body ....a living work of art, like the Nile it flowed... every curve magnified it's magnificence.  Her skin was as golden as fresh honey and as smooth as Shea- butter... flawless she was from head-to-toe.  When she spoke it was soft and sweet, like strings playing in a symphony....soothing to the soul. She said.... '' Listen and tell of me.'' ... and I knew that, she wanted me to tell her story. She said.. '' I was born of man... He carried me inside of himself; until the fullness of time. Then, The Great Physician caused him to fall into a deep sleep... in the cool of the day: as he slept I was taken from his side. When, He did wake... he looked upon me.... and called me -- Wo-Man. For he said, " I was flesh of his flesh and bone of his bone, made for his pleasure, and to the glory of God!" Woman, to be his help meet, to stand beside him, to encompass him about; and he was my covering. Then, she said..." That, I Am spoke.... and His voice was like the sound of many waters.... and He said," Wonderfully and Fearfully were you made.... One plus One equaling One, for you two who came out of one .... are one again!" I Am Woman the glory of man... made in the image of God and for His honor. Then, it was like... I awaken from a deep sleep as weak as water... but somehow renewed: and I did write ... that which she spoke to me in a vision. She... who is .... Woman.

Doors open, I can see you from over his shoulders... Your eyes meet mine but you do nothing; You say nothing. Can't you see what's going-on... Don't you understand that, what he's doing is wrong? I know, I'm sorry... I said- something that, you didn't like but must I endure this every-night? Your eyes... I see are filled with tears but we both know that,this has been happening for years. Standing- There... back-against the wall. You hear his moans and you do nothing at all. Help... me!  Do something! All I can not say. He releases inside of me and I see you...turn and go away. My- Mother, My-Mother, all my life where have you been?He's my father... I'm his son but he acts like we're not kin. My- Mother, My-Mother, Eyes wide-open but you don't see;because-- He says {  He loves you}. You, allow him to do this to me. My-Father, My-Father... In your mind this is right; I know, because that's what you tell-me... every-other-night. My-Mother, My-Father.. to you I lay no-blame. This thing that I do... I do because of shame. I've asked God to forgive you and have mercy on me; as I take my last breathe, I'm so glad to be free. { Jay's Song... You will forever be missed and loved.  Jay Lovato{ Jan. 15, 1999- Jan.15 2012}

Later's.. Where I want to be with you, Doing all the freaky things we do; Got-Me, Up-Against the wall with your hands down in my draws; yeah! I'm creaming in my jeans.. you about to make me scream. Later's, Where I want to be with you. Doing all the wild things, we do... got hard chocolate in your mouth,  and you're ******* in-and-out; Later's, Where I want to be with you. Later's, Where I want to be with you... doing all the ***** things we do; got you down on your knees and you're blowing me with ease; Later's, Where I want to be with you... Doing all the  crazy things that, we do, Yeah! I'm running in a thong and you're justa egging-me-on! Now, I'm ******* on your breast...like rain you're all wet. Later's, Where I want to be with you.. Doing all the **** things we-do; Like when you're down on your  knees and I'm banging you to please; OOOO! Later's, Where I want to be with you. Doing those things we like to do...me loosing my tongue deep-inside you... front-to-back; nothing I don't do. Later's, Where I want to be with you... turn-off the lights; Now lets do what we do...OOOOOOOOOOOO! No-More, Later!

In order to truly enjoy the company of someone else, We must learn to enjoy our own company. Before, we can truly love anyone else, We must learn to truly love ourselves. Two halves in a relationship or friendship, does not make it whole: it takes two whole people to make a whole friendship or relationship. Stop, Looking for someone else to make you whole or even complete you, and look to God for He's the only one who can. Learn to be the kind of friend that, you would like to have. Sow good seeds like: Compassion, Understanding, Love-Without- Conditions, Trust, Respect, Kindness, Peace, Hope, Tenderness, Truth, Honesty, Forgiveness, Help-Just-Because, Joy, Long-suffering, Grace, Mercy, and Laughter: and watch as the seeds are watered with grace and with love. They, will produce after their own kind. Long-Story- Short,  Whatever, kind of seeds that you sow... Be they good or bad, those are the ones or kind that, You are going to reap; so why-not, sow good seeds and reap that-which is good. Yeah! You Reap What You Sow!!

Mostly standing still- not moving at all. No, direction, No for-thought, No thoughts of the here-after. Down but not out, Through but not over, Perplexed but not consumed, Empty... Motionless but still here. Someone said as long as you're breathing, there's still hope. You still have a chance... to change, to grow, to live, to love, to experience something new in life; to be. Yeah! You still have a chance to be. Mostly standing still- not moving at all... was how I use to be. Now, I move freely... Honoring my creator for giving me the right... to be.  The Right To Be!