Have to let perfection go
Not possible in this world

Except to always try again
The Dragon scroll unfurled

Get up, Stand up another time
Don't give up the fight

The present may not understand
But the unknown future might

         Gatsby's green light.

I dreamed of Eliade again
Eliade and Einstein
Games people play
Things people find

        red, red wine

To fight the panicky feelings
I stay inside and rest

Phone calls to my family
Comfort in my quest

The anxiety is expected
I've been through this test

Calm and quiet courage
Connection is the best.

*** and Death and God
The deepest of obsessions

My letter to her odd
Sins and love confessions

Night again has fallen
The news is frightening bad

My first kiss with her
Most trembling I ever had

All I really want to do
Be with them as a dad

Don Quixote knew
The greatest sanity is mad.

twilight turning
  nothing to do
         blue

My mind often moves to apocalyptic
Sometimes very scary

Mentally ill and mentally mystic
Guadalupe Mary

I need help with dailiness
To be more organized

I miss my family so
Can you sympathasize?

My motivations sometimes hidden
Vague, ambiguous

Conversations with strangers and friends
And I learn again to trust

                  Carolina Blue bus!

Depression again
I swing low
         Patience.

sunshine blue today
maybe basketball

when I don't know what to say
Carolina vs. all y'all

Facebook can be fun
Oh! my Uncle Jack

Sam is loyalty
He goes there and back ...

Bookstore blues
Such solitude
        50
          1

In the ER again
Man of Constant Sorrow
But Seattle tomorrow!

Again, the comfort of the blinds
         Silent shadows on my wall
                       That is all

Fishing today, then rest
   Moving again soon
       Flaming June

the human condition
disappointment and pain
but thankfully still
Purple Rain

do my best
downbound train
Qualyxian Quest
Toledo, Spain

The people that I try to help
I end up hurting instead

Then I have panic attacks
And wish I were dead

Words are all I have
And they can cause such pain

So solitude tonight
Silence in the rain

Despondency again

The depression quite bad today
Pain on rain on pain

It never goes away
It's presence i disdain

Gonna eat two tacos
Think of La Mancha, Spain

Hope for my friend Alex
Try not to go insane

                  Again.

He tells me of Tecumseh
Spirited Resistance

I listen long and lonesome
I wish another instance

I drift; I am a drifter
No direction now

He tells me many stories
Stories of Pow Wow

         Again. I listen.

I don't like to hate my own country
But I have seen enough

Like Lina I long for Elsewhere
Go ahead, call my bluff

Gas stations, cheap hotels
Fast food, insults, and competition

This is America the Ignorant
Repeated in many renditions

And now a debased Trumpist condition.

America the Ignorant
Now on full display

Rush and his Gold Medal
Acquittal all the way

62 million trumpfucks
All on election day

These people, their Fox friends
Despair, Destruction, Dismay

conscience violation
to negate the hate in nation

conscious motivation
exceeding expectation

communal invitation
love links a revelation

no need for grandiosity
I take the little way

again alone, again alone
inside I often stay

solitude is quiet
quietude I pray

leads to reuniting
maybe in the month of May

Irish bar and Johnny Cash
In my car, same songs (I laugh)
Though Dead, he lives - The Man in Black
Music immortal - keeps comin’ back!

I am haunted by waters.

17 minutes
17th letter Q

young son sung
and a president too

allusions are fun
history of who?

genuine gratitude
and God be with you

To an astronomer, humanity is an infintesimal speck of galactic dust, said whoever.

That speck is also the astronomer, said Einstein.

To understand more than to be understood.

Teachers teach
Professors profess

Priests sacrifice
Sinners confess

America lost
In the Wilderness

The country is
A racist mess

All alone
Again I guess

the purpose of the artist
is always to deepen the mystery

so said Francis Bacon
from the pages of Irish and English history

I do not disagree
(and I told her his feet were blistery)

but in this disenchanted world
it would have to be in a list for free:

                          Wetheral - Cambrian
                         Book of Kells - Burke
                          Corvallis - Farrington
                          Backstreets - Dziedzic
                            Carrboro - Greeley
                       Wake County jail - Sallyport
                                   Hitch Hikin’ etc ...

the sadness of my own nation
    the insults, ignorance, infatuation
            freedom for what? denigration ...

                  lost souls. devastation.

America is the Land of Ignorance
See how they run
I listen to some music
Basketball with my son

American politics
Demagogue in the Night
I play a little basketball
Gatsby's green light

                 Well, Alright!

The American people
Are hopelessly racist

If there' s hope
The hope is spacist

But there isn't
Which is why replacist

Demagagues
Hate foreign faces

The American people against the President
    an ignorant, evil man - his hate evident
                   prayers of pain
       to this White House resident

         may he live and die in vain
                   a Fate malevolent.

                               Amen.

The Dalai Lama ******* tongues
              with little boys

                What a fraud!

              Make some noise.

I was surprised Avatar 2 was boring
I liked the first one very much
Slept late this morning
Gonna read about Thomas More

So they say Lithium is a powerful drug
But I really don't notice
Instead I watch the Batman
Walk around Baltimore

It will never be fully known
The number of innocent people
George W. slaughtered in the Middle East
Hundreds of Thousands? Millions? Or ...

It wasn't his fault
Osama made him do it
America, the world's largest economy
But the people so ignorant, so poor

                    So many ******

Talk, talk, talk
Still they babble on

Walk, walk, walk
I recall Saigon

America doesn't change
The violence persists

War is always their answers
In silence I resists!

What the Americans care about is money
But this they call God

They worship it profusely
Don’t see that others find this odd

Blessed are the rich, they say
Inverting the words of Christ

Their billionaire President
And his Atlantic City dice

I’ve resisted this throughout my life
But, of course, I’ve failed and failed

Now I’m on the outside
Though no friend to go my bail

The greed is in my family
Nearly all Americans I’ve ever known

I love and need connection
But now I live alone.

The Americans are racists
Terrible but true

They'll do it unto others
Then they'll do it unto you

Hypocrisy in public
In private defenses fall

Human all too human
Not chosen after all

they say that death comes as release
and probably they are right

the terror in this world of woe
gives way to Eternal Night

I’m losing, losing, losing
But something in me driven to fight

maybe maleness, or Irish, or I don’t know
but I hate these racist American whites.

America now so ugly
But at least we have basketball

Adam surely played with Eve
Right before the Fall

**** Trump and the Trumpfucks
And their ******* border Wall

Now I wakewalk Franklin Street
Carolina against all y'all!

The Americans are self-absorbed
Even when they travel

They think they are Israel
Even as they babble

I've lived among them 50 years
I watch in dismayed silence

They know no peace
They know no peace

Because they can't refrain from violence.

The Trumpfuck televangelists
And all those preacher haters

Can't think to save their lives
So they become Republican debaters

America is Ignorance
Ignorance with much money

A dangerous combination
Violent, unfunny

I like Stanley Park
Seattle to Vancouver

Tea twilight to dark
Goodbye dumb Joe Hoover.

I don't rank high in society
I don't possess an honorary degree
But David Brooks, I can see
You are a fake, a big phony
You should shut up
Go to see
All the dead and dying Iraqis
*******, David
Endlessly

Nothing ever achieves being
So say some Buddhist sages

Strangely this philosophy of futility
endures throughout the ages

all things rise and all things fall
nothingness remains

compassion within this world of woe
breath therapy for the pain

snowfall softly shunyata
in spring the gentle rain

Virus like a forest fire
Death keeps on spreading

I wait inside all alone
Who knows where we're heading?

Nature is against us
We're not meant to be

But we do our best as in a test
And we go down rebelliously

                 Rebel Yell from me.

The universities believe in nearly nothing
But they build the economy

No resistance to the state
They obey obediently

The Pentagon keeps fighting
Bombs on foreign babies

George W. was quite certain
No room for doubts or maybes

May he rot in hell
With **** Cheney and their friends

America is a madness
The violence never ends.

The Jesuits publish a hateful piece
Hatred for Joe Biden (even though he is Catholic)
Hatred for gay people
Comfort for the racists.

Disgusting.

Once again, the Catholic Church as oppressor.

**** Cheney in Vice - unrepentant evil
          cold as ice, beyond retrieval
     mass ****** device, hatred primeval

Men are not flattered when you inform them that there is a difference between the Divine Purpose and their purpose.

                      - Abraham Lincoln

The Americans are corrupt
They vote for Donald Trump
Dream of deportation
Viva Mexico!

University of Toledo
Vegetarian burritos
Seattle in the misty rain
Baltimore in snow

                   Lo!