I have no desire to give lectures or sermons
No desire to give speeches
Politicians as celebrities
Followers like leeches

Religion mostly bad for me
But I like those minarets
Went to church with her just one time
Misty, but didn't forget

America is ignorance
Empire. Racehate. Nukes.
Russia is Putin
Violence against the Ukes

Pushkin's power in The Prophet
Fingers light as dream
Rabbi Nahman leaves Jerusalem
Finds the Silent Scream

                  Agonia

I'm a troubled soul
No distinguished career
Tired. Exoplanets.
Whisper in your ear

Kinda geeky shy
Ain't her kinda guy
Falling, but I try
To fight back all the fear

          loved ones dear

My friend Bob is a Unitarian
As was my Grandaddy Brown
As is my cousin Natalie
Take a look around

I too believe in oneness
I do, Ave Maria
2 beautiful women
I would like to be ya

             Oneness
                 3 ya.

I move behind the scenes
And watch the starring actors

All the world’s a stage
But at times I’m a redactor

Changes must be made
Foolishness a factor

I watch, I wait, I wonder
Is silence an impactor?

The Dark Lord is rising
In the Southeast, Frodo.

All his mind is bent on it.
The Dark Lord and the Ring -

             They are One.

70 orcas **** a blue whale
Oceanic terror

So many creatures devoured alive
Is life a sadistic error?

One insular Tahiti
Horrors of the half-known life

Now she has my letter
But she is not my wife

                Open?

The last act is tragic
All over forever

The 8th grade act a bit magic
Her name, in fact, was Heather

Since the last act is tragic
It's nothingness, not heaven

But if you see Wendy Darling
Tell her thank you, thank you,
                 thank you


              For 1986 and 87.

Everyone has a philosophy
Most not too believable

I chose that for my major
But how much is retrievable?

Never been to Athens
Spent a few days in Rome

The heart is a lonely hunter
Tryin' to make it home

           Donde esta mi casa?

                     Unknown

2023 is coming
I'm gonna wait awhile
There is no rush
There is no rush

Be a taxi service
Clean my car
Organize my house
Live to fight another day

See the doc
Lose the clock
Find the rock
Callooh! Callay!

Emily
In my solitude
What a dream!
Crush.

            Una dia.

once more Flaming June
Rollin’ Tumblin’ Dylan tune
       Oh, to read the Viking runes
                       Exomoons!

American Cosmic
UFO

JJ Abrams
Told you so

Fly leaf books
Chicago

Coming Soon?
I don't know

Myth is real?
On we go.

Said Giordano Bruno

Fr. Greeley insisted
Jesus wasn't humble; he was tough
Help me fight on
Even when I have feelings
That I'm not good enough

And let me call their bluff.

It's true I've known betrayals
But I am not embittered

Human beings change
I am the one they quittered

But I do dream faithfulness
Of the female persuasion

Maybe not for always
But at least on some occassions

Blessings to their families
Protection for yours and mine

Poems in the night
The Pacific Island kind

American politics is mostly hopeless
But a little crack gives light
Mr. Sandor Marai
That Hungarian man could write!

There are times in sleep like humming
My mind in pleasant motion
The dreams tell good stories
Humming, healing, help

There are times I cannot sleep
Anxiety attacks
Politics portends
George W. destroyed Iraq

In death we sleep forever
Is there a kind of dream?
To and for my beloved Dead
To and for my team

            Ameen.

The righteous empire of America
Is wrong and bound to fall
I hang out at the bookstore
Watch some basketball

Friedrich Nietzsche today
And a little Johnny Cash
Spring and summer rolls
The beauty of her ***

America is ignorance
But also Susan Meek
Also Alex Nava
Also hide and seek

I take the long term view
I wait and walk and wonder
In the cemetery
I hear the rolling thunder

                 Martin

Maybe i wanted to be important
Good thing i am not
Would like to open closing doors
Show my brother Scott

Cleveland Guardians
Twisting, drifting plot
Amish country donuts
Fish near Angkor Wat

Thai yellow curry
Show her what I got
Courage when it comes
El futuro: Bon Mot!

Leaving Trinity College
Bishop Berkeley in my head

Remembering the following limerick
Which I once in Reno read:


           “There once was a man named Todd
              Who found it exceedingly odd
              To think that a tree
              Should continue to be
              When no one’s about on the quad

              Dear Sir,
                             Your astonishment’s odd
              For I am always about on the quad
              And that’s why this tree
              Shall continue to be
              Signed Yours Faithfully,
  
              God.                                           “


I leave the Book of Kells
Then look ahead

James Joyce statue
Snow for the Dead

I remember Himself
As my grandmother said

Where will we now be led?

The saints have their own country
Oui, Monsieur Pascal
Stranger Than Fiction
Fox theater in Detroit

Born in Santa Rosa
Also born at home
Very California
My boy's gonna rock this joint

Quiet conversations
Libraries and coffee shops
Vienna aglow in snow
Jesus to Anoint

Ludwig Wittgenstein
A little time in Dublin
To pass over in silence
Eliot at the still point

             Dancing

The chaos of my life.
The panic, confusion, strife.
Despite everything, please protect my wife.

                               tulips

According to Richard Ridriguez

https://youtu.be/U9oTBA-MvZk

Death obsessed
Sick and suffering
Tired
Often unwell

Lonely
Broke
Telephonely
Ishmael

It might be inspiration
Might be delusion
I can't quite right quite tell

I experience coincidence
Doc says it's meaningless
I sail with Ishmael

I see analogies
Some say apophenia
Truly, I wish her well

Numbers on license plates
37 and 72
Bon Scott. Highway to Hell.

Also 137
Like Jung and Wolfgang Pauli
Ring them Bells!

Pythagoras transmigrated
So did the Ancient Celts
Baghdad fell

Thomas means the Twin
I live a double life
Two women not my wife
(A tale or two to tell)

             Rebel Yell!

Posterity is for the philosopher
What the Other World is for religion

So thought Diderot
With his encyclopedic vision

But surely the future is foreign
even a country undiscovered

And the Other World, if such exists,
also touches ours when uncovered

another world to live in
si, es verdad, Mr. Santayana

Everyone living seeks it
atheists, believers, both Madonnas

It's just gonna be annihilation
             Here. Gone.


              Gamla Stan!

Everybody's bipolar now
Psychiatrists makin' big bucks
I eat miso soup
Drink Jarittos at taco trucks

Lucky to have had some good teachers
Middle school myself
Stepping stones, Zeroes at the Bones
Legolas the Elf

It's ok to die; please help me, Ry
Not to be afraid
Ashes greenblue ocean
101 Taipaid

                     Wayed

37000 words
yet not one step nearer

just enough to show
I battle though I’m a fearer

my sons are what I deeply know
of dearness growing dearer

as above, so below
will coincidences become clearer?

The Spirit of Exclusion and Terror
        American Empire is in Error
              kindness ever rarer ...


                     Deliverance!

See "The soul crushing legacy of Billy Graham" in Rolling Stone magazine.

as Alex acknowledged - the terror of death
Dia de los Muertos y Buddha breath
Hope against hope, Quixoticeth

Woke up this mornin' early
Dreamin' of Jimmy Joyce

Aretha Franklin on Facebook
Power in her voice!

Sometimes we are led
Do we have a choice?

The Beloved Community
California's Josiah Royce

Santa Rosa y Sacramento
     We quietly rejoice.

He says the path to the universal
Is through the particular
I've moved very often
My particularities change

And resurface in my memories
Boston Strong!
Icy Charles River
Larry Bird more than Danny Ainge

Hints of Shiva
Women double themselves for Krishna
Yo Boonsboro!
People are strange

I share my dream with a stranger
London bus
I try to trust
Samantha James

             Secret Flames!

The bad boy with the good heart
Like the Rolling Stones
Each day I grow older
Sadness all my own

2072
I hope my sons all still alive
Gonna need duty
Love alone will not survive

Maybe God is Silence
Never intervenes
Deus Otiosus
Rothko blue and green

San Francisco Zen
I like miso soup
Ja Morant on the break
Here comes the Alley Ooop

            Alley Ooop Ooop
                       Ooop

                 Ooop Ooop

The closer you arrive
The scarier things get

But I still don't know
What exactly is it?

Sometimes beauty
Sometimes terror

Sometimes wisdom
Sometimes error

Sometimes mystery
Sometimes scarer

Sometimes chaos
Sometimes fairer

I once as a child
Was a ring bearer

Frodo was 50
When he chose

                                Darer!

Thankful for the doctors
I hope they see me through

St. Augustine in Ostia
Ever ancient, Ever new

Hakeem the Dream spun
Michael Jordan flew

Reno white in snow
Carolina blue

            Be true.

I'm nobody's hero
Can barely take care of myself
Bipolar is my burden
Legolas the Elf

I like sci-fi movies
I like middle school books
Susan Darlene Meek
Thai curry from Thai cooks

I'm truly unimportant
Kamakura snow
Aye! Aye! Aye!
Yoko yo yo yo yo

                 On we go ....

81 South
Camus at JMU
Absurd Theonerd
Pondicherry Zoo

DC metro train
She's dressed in black
I'm too shy
Too shy, Jack

6066
Centuries have passed
Come Sail Away by Styx
Hey Now! Everlast

          
                Susan!

The sadness tonight
Hope I can sleep
Burning down the years

Grey day blues
Meaninglessness
A thousand falling fears

The moon last night
Yellow glow
Precious time with Q

I drift toward death
Franklin Street
I hope I die in you

              72

He said they were like drowning rats
At times, alas, so am I
Yann Martel is right
About religion in Life of Pi

When the relief comes: thankfulness.
Relax, relax, sweet sigh
Breathe, gently breathe
Live Without a Why

Basketball since very young
Long after I do die
Nikola Jokic, The Joker
I Thai Wai

             Ain't no lie.

The silence because I can't reach
Words are not enough
Jesus wasn't humble
Was he Chicago tough?

Her father is a priest
Episcopalian
St. Augustine
3710

Rain on the ocean
Train to Tokyo
Never see her again
Am I dying slow?

         Don't know.

my hopes might hide in ignorance
ignorance and surprise

the ignorance Socratic
the kind that’s actually wise

surprise almost suspicion
something else perhaps the case

unknown, now undiscovered,
in this Land of Waste

de docta ignorantia
and on desperation too

what happens when the Unknown Land
appears a bit to view?

If you fall in love at 16
But don’t have her for your wife

Why can’t you forget her
For the remainder of your life?

trying to overcome isolation
through the practice of conversation

trying to elevate communication
through the practice of poetization

trying to endure national alienation
through the practice of localization

trying to dream as my vocation
through the cultivation of imagination

                  Ah! Intensification.

for the wisdom to help
my troubled, troubling wife

silence, words and courage amidst
the suspicion, confusion, and strife

healing actions and peace
for her chaotic, angry, wild, and precious life

                        Amen.

The terrible thing about death
You never meet your loved one again

The silence is eternal
The rest is just pretend

The silence is me missing
The silence never ends

Moonlight, oceans, starshine
Slient lights they send

The Universities promise
More than they can deliver
Cliff Pickover
In ecstasy shiver

Southern California
Only twice
Oceanside
Didn't get the job

American nice
Destroys Vietnam
Destroys Iraq
Without a trickle or sob

But there is nowhere to go
So
Green Arrow
Put one in your quiver

          Sic Semper Tyrannis

Khadija comforts Mohammed
Silver crescent moon
Rothko blue and green
In our kitchen Flaming June

Gradual, says the Cardinal
Gradual is wise
More than one lifetime
I experiment y tries

I would like to see Tunisia
Heidelberg, Istanbul
I would like to take the ferry boat
Where the sadness does not pull

If I have a little hope
It's in the long term view
Women priests, Francis Pope
Gay marriage too

            History? Undo.