I'll never actually find it
But maybe that's not the point

The Reno sky big blue
Future to anoint

Calyx now has earpods
I listen to the rain

2037
Toledo, Ohio. Toledo, Spain.

                      Ole!

Siena Cathedral
Black and White
Meister Eckhart
Not Sein und Zeit

Her voice is kind
Calls me Todd
I search and search
Can't find God

Swimming pools
Charcuterie board
Johnny Cash
Praise the Lord

Will I die alone?
Near my sons?
Rolling Stone
Lucky ones

                   Elpis

Not feeling all that well
But grateful for the sleep
Quiet in my house
Star Trek later today

I like Mr. Spock
His love for his mother
Please protect my brothers
Quietly xie xie

              Christo Rey

It's mostly silences
Unbalance in my brain
Anxiety attacks
Toledo, Ohio. Toledo, Spain.

Arapaho Drive
Tecumseh the Shawnee
Chief Seattle
Thailand, Land of the Free

I take my son to work
Gonna sleep till 4
Class of 72
India, China, Baltimore

           forgotten lore

50 million
year old fossils

Andre the Giant
genuine colossal

Kareem Abdul Jabbar
Mycroft and me

Searching, still searching
For extraordinary

It's not true
The various religions
Modernity arrives
Just sweeps 'em away

Science fiction
The Sacred hides
She was not my bride
Callooh! Callay!

Sage Ridge School
Reno blue
Basketball too
Yesterday

Drift toward death
Anxious breath
Silently, Seth
Julius Caesar the play

       Cinna the poet!

America has no friends
only interests
said Secretary John Foster Dulles

I’d rather be friends
with Fezzick
as he opens that portcullis

solitude again my companion
we walk and talk together

but when I talk to myself
it isn’t about the weather

loneliness, terror, timestrikes
its power to untether

Curious California
Whatever became of Heather?

Taipei taxi twilight
birth: middle son
           101

There is no divine intervention
God is Silence Itself
Gimli is the dwarf
Legolas the elf
We have too many guns
Too few books upon our shelf
September 11th
October 12th

            Help!

I keep writing about California
With Georgia on My Mind
Truly I tried to warn ya
America Unkind

Tucker Carlson is San Diego
The beaches must be white
I went to Balboa Park
Not a ******* in sight

Snow in Lake Tahoe
Fog on the Golden Gate
California cold
2088

City Lights bookstore
Moroccan mint tea
Do you know the way to San Jose?
Sausalito see

              Lunch at 2 or 3

             Bridges definitely.

I haven't stopped yet
Obsessionville
I take the Southern Star

Solitude is yearningly
I wonder where you are?

So much mind mortality
So many seed postcards

She's a gardener
I'm raindrops
We wait in your frontyard

                   Hey **
               See the Bard!

fear death when it is far
but not when it is near

one must be a man
even if we disappear

Pascal the hidden thinker
his pensees I still revere

vive La France of trenchant thought
musique indeed unto my ear

I really loved the traveling
Israel, Japan
I really loved the concerts
Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band

55 and falling
Thank you for my sons
Keep them moving forward
Please give up your guns

                 Tel Aviv! Kyoto!

again the 37
        I simply notice
                  hopeless POTUS

Readers read. Writers write.
Wonderers wonder and guess.

Thinkers think. Workers work.
Teachers teach.  Professors...……. profess.

Said my Uncle Marty
After my (Irish) grandmother
Would speak.

She was a teacher. Herself.
Me too.

Grandma,

Help me do
My best purpleblue.

     Toledo hue.

Said Crazy Horse
(Who was sane, of course)

I'm not going to figure it all out
Grateful today for rest
Grateful for my new place
Not now put to test

Eggs and hashbrowns for breakfast
Toast with a bit of jelly
Yes, I remember Happy Days
Arthur Fonzarelli!

My days drift on and lonely
But phone calls from my boys
Motorcycle taxis in Bangkok
Memories? Nitnoy.

              y un pequito joy

Not doing very well tonight
At the edge of panicky scared
Slowly. Slowly. Patience.
Courage, please. Calm.

                   Balm.

Carolina Inn, Carolina Blue
     I’d go the whole wide world for you
           King Lear is a fool, Cordelia is true...

                        Just to find her!

Carolina blue
    Eastertime too
         quiet as a clue...


                        hiddenness.

Arcade Junior High School
Sacramento, California
Mr. Katz teaches me to write
The 5 paragraph essay

He also invites me
To play on the AAU travel team
We head to Phoenix for the tournament
John Thompson is also there

Dis be dat Cay, eh Timothy?
I like Coach Katz's intensity
Insists that you do your very best
But never insults, never abuse

Years later
Mark and I see Sacramento State play
Close game, but they get the W
Go Hornets!

                    Viva Sacramento!

Is Paul the Mahdi?
I gave the book to my son for Christmas
I have not read it
But I have seen the movie

The author said
It is a warning against heroes
Paul does have powers, precognitive dreams
Which is why you should not trust him
As your Messiah

They call Dune philo- Islamic
The desert. Tribes. Colonization. The Mahdi.
Occultation
He doesn't die. He goes into hiding.

I admire the story of Khadijah
The way she helps Mohammed
When I become psychotic
I am mostly on my own

Once and Future appeals to me
Hiding
Waiting
Meditating

      The desert meets the Sea.

                       We.

Because I fear eternal Night
I’m grateful for each morn

I wake beneath our window
Near Northern Lights reborn

Anxiety assaults my mind
Leaving me lonely and forlorn

But I watch the way the worry works
(From its tumult may I be torn)

As we quest along Quixotically
Feeling for the Forms

Sartre said Man is a Useless Passion
Maybe he is right
But I've been faithful in my fashion
And I still see 2 green lights

                       White Nights!

Friar Thomas D'Aquino
I'm intrigued by his end
Sunlit Italy
Teaching in Cologne

8th grade dance
Sacramento Heather
Lovely Ms. Katherine Orr
I'm drawn to the Unknown

Was in Minneapolis once
Fought with my wife
Drove on to Chicago
George Thorogood - Bad to the Bone

Haunted by the past
Please hope for the future
Episcopaliens
Coulianou: Ioan.

             Bucharest ...

almost like a Fortress of Solitude
but I’m not Superman

alone, nearly unknown,
I try to do the best I can

at times a horror story world
no darling Wendy, no Peter Pan

yet our minds are looking skyward
slant rhymes from Aliens?

8:37
My boy is 8 today

Remember Santa Rosa
Remember Callooh! Callay!

Keep your, Keep your joy
Let it lingerstay

I miss you, my wondrous boy
May you proceed to play!

often fleeing festivities
   struggling with sinful proclivities
                 but inside internal nativities

I'm kinda addicted to poetry
But it's probably better than crack
Nixon destroyed Cambodia
George W. destroyed Iraq

I like Robert Frost
The road less traveled by
Prince in Minneapolis
Purple goes the sky

Ja Morant can play!
Jokic with the lob
Workin' in the Spirit
Need a part time job

Ancient philosophy
Exoplanets spin
Cardinal Newman is right
You have to lose to win

  Thich Nhat Hanh from ** Chi Minh

That terror element in life
Scary, Mary, Scary

Protection in the strife
Sometimes little. Sometimes very.

Guadalupe green
Hidden Quetzalcoatl

I read Things Not Seen
Launch the ship. Break the bottle.

                         Alex!

Said Donald Hall.

Never went to Catholic school
Pray outside the Church
Jesus didn't die for our sins
Cedar. Willow. Birch.

Water, water everywhere
Water on exomoons
Girl with the Pearl Earring
Water Lillies. Flaming June.

Icy Charles River
Brunch at the hotel
Vegetarian tacos
Alyosha. Ishmael.

Sandor Marai in San Diego
The kiss. Genuflects.
Poetry in Vienna
Wittgenstein reflects

                  Winter ***!

She wished me abundant joy
The best wish I ever got

I told her of my problems
I told her stories, Scott

Tonight the soccer field
Nearly all alone

The religious are often frightened
I read them on my phone

I too speak of God
But only as mystery

Bless you, Sheherazad
When I through shall not be

              Please bless me.

I've never seen a situation so miserable that a police officer couldn't make it worse.

                            - Brendan Behan

I claimed my Irish heritage
I think they are gonna claim me
Look at Himself there
Said my grandma Marie

Went to the post office in Dublin
And here in Mary's Land
Sally Jane Brown Witherell
And a rockin' band

Father Andrew Greeley
Bold Jimmy Joyce
William James in Boston
In California Josiah Royce

Celtic Cross on Franklin Street
Bonfires for Samhain
Rothko green and blue
Purple Rain in Spain

              Tucson Train!

Trappist1 clouds?
         wonder out loud
                  silences shroud ...


                 coincidences?

Most likely
Artistic immortality is the only kind
I want her to live forever
Please enter into my mind

A very gentle voice
Black her, but blue eyes
Knockin' me out with her grace
And her American thighs

Fragile, but a fighter
They say Romeo is unwise
But do not fear the reaper
He laughs even as he cries

Satellite Beach is warm
Harrisonburg is tomorrow
Her beauty in the storm
Her joy amidst the sorrow

         Mature poets steal.
     Immature poets borrow.

i have trouble accepting the ends of things
relationships, each day, my life

i miss my Beloved Dead
i sing Cuts Like a Knife

the Buddha saw the transience
Nothing Gold Can Stay

2:22 all alone
Bangkok to Taipei

Krop Kun Kop
Xie Xie

tonight again starry Farrington Road
waitin’ (not debatin’) Ghost of Tom Joad

I pay careful attention
memory unloads

was it karma or courage?
is madness my mode?

best wishes for Victor
may he find an abode

her blessing is taken
Catholic cannibal code

unusual coincidences, much mental illness
contemplative gaze, silence and stillness
                  The Incomprehensible

I thought I was seeking God
and truly I still am

but I was also seeking words
for instance, Alakazam

Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh
in Hebrew is the Great I Am

Do I wish God was a Beautiful Woman?
Here in Carolina I’d say, Yes, Ma’am

It's ok that I showed
My sickness and sin
It reveals my humanity

Rabbi Nahman
Always to begin
We fight Sean Hannity

Knowledge comes
Knowledge goes
Sophia and the Lady

Episcopal
Buddhamind
The Jacksons: 1980s

             Thriller!

Americans are only 5 per cent of the world's population
But nearly 25 percent of the world's prisoners
The ocean is in motion
Bipolar elevation

San Francisco Zen Center: silent meditation
Moroccan mint tea
Fog blows through the bridge
Quixotic reputation

Istanbul at night:  dreamt of destination
Turkish coffee in London
Turkish psychiatrist in Reno
Prestidigitation

Preachin' peace and harmony, but a time for devastation
Is Batman a vigilante?
Is Catwoman a lesbian?
Jokes in the police station

                     Interrogation

Father Greeley and my mantra:
Relax. God is in charge.

Surely Sam Mcgee
The planks on Lake Lebarge

Guide me, Father Greeley
To follow my vocation

The silence and the speaking
Duty destination

                       Amen.

just watched the shootout
soccer, not guys with guns

3-2 with a save at the end
Ay! the red team won

Hablo Espanol, pero solamente un pequito
I sit in silence; tacos I can eat though

rain came down came rain
cold and kinda biting

so I am here again
troubled. alone. writing.

everblue maybe evertrue
     twilight time entrances too
            fade to black, starshine for you