I'm sexually starved it's true
Lonely as the rain

Madness breaking through
Marriage is pain on pain

This life's a horror story
But still La Mancha, Spain

We disappear forever
Bullet train my brain!

The sky fades to orange
I call to California
Mr. David Markson
Can't say he didn't warn ya

The early days of Venice
Good place to hide
Tidal pools in Monterrey
Memories elide

Mircea Eliade
In Chicago with the Fire
Denver, Colorado
Rocky Mountain Higher

Grateful for my dad
Quiet in my room
Dread Annihilation
Coming American Doom

              Ka Boom!

Poems in the night
      Taipei taxis
              101

travel and travail
      time passing prevail
             eternity entails ...


                                ?

No joy in Mudville
Strikeout once more

Melville prophetic
Hate like before

Oh, Canada!
Is it you we implore?

Where is Elsewhere?
Who opens the Door?

So I have to walk through  a group of protesters today holding signs that say Stop White Hate Racism Against White People Is Still Racism It's OK To Be White in order to buy my root beer float and drink it at the bar while I watch the Michigan State vs. Iowa State basketball game there are almost no nonwhite people in this little town and as I walk into the restaurant I say to the teenagers who work as servers and waitresses I'm not going to be hated for being white if I eat lunch here am I? No they reply I didn't think so I say election 2024 is building racehate is in the air so is white grievance so is American Ignorance

                   Shakyamuni Buddha

                   The original Woke man

One life. One life only.
Mostly disappointment and pain
1st Noble Truth
Women to ordain

2 years of Latin
But I wasn't very good
Jeovanni's pizza
In my neighborhood

Never been to Albania
Or Tajikistan
Know no Russian beauties
Saw the Wrath of Khan

Shamans in the mountains
Koreans in Taiwan
Tuk Tuks in Bangkok
Temple of the Dawn

            Soon Gone.

I fear annihilation
Break my rusty cage
Solitude staycation
Break my cage and run

Darkness comes again
My mind in meditation
Melville's mystery page
Taipei 101

                The sun!

3:13, 3:13
I drink another Coke

The despair returns; I hideaway
I hear no funny joke

Solitude is tiring
Company is strain

I sleeplonglate, fear for Fate
Buzzing in my brain

             She's insane!

communal soul, each a piece of the whole
      bell tower tolls, hallelujahs roll
    tolls for thee, ancient Prague to see
Thich Nhat Hanh, in pacem journey on.

From the forgotten to the Unexpected
Become who you are
Moonlight in your hands
Follow that wandering star!

Sometimes I fear my own power
Insight. Advance.
Thai dancers quite lovely
They dance in Paris, France

Shakyamuni Buddha
The original Woke man
In Thailand I touched a tiger
In Florida Yes We Can

Patientia
Strike while strike you may
2024
I get on my knees and pray

               'Dis be dat Cay!

oh those 37s
comin’ round again

ain’t got no friend named Kevin
though once we might have been

next life perhaps not heaven
who knows where or when?

I’d like to see my mother
I hope Rey saves Kylo Ren

                                Ireland!

I am not naturally a rebel
Have to teach myself
Get my Irish up
Courage to take risks, make mistakes

Rock music on the radio
All through my childhood
The evil sometimes the good
Cleveland Guardians!

Alex in Tucson
Susan in Denver
Judi in Georgia
Runnin' the break!

Avoid the company of women.

What if one of them should speak to us?

Remain very awake, Ananda.

American, still American
But at my best I too resist
Thailand Land of the Free
Embers' closing kiss

Timor Mortis Conturbat Me
Otto - gonna watch
Used to drink the Wine
Never tried the Scotch

Secluded shunyata
Shabu Shabu Boston town
Shabu Shabu Tokyo
Off like a purple prom gown

I wish that she would hold me
Talk before good bye
Frederick, Maryland
Sally Hemings, Life of Pi

            Ay! Ay! Ay!

Lois Lowry was written by a Trappist monk
Intriguing to me
Searching. Searching...
For Elsewhere

I taught the Giver in Taipei
Utopia websites
Excellent students
Intelligent. Black hair.

Jonas y Fiona
Seeing Beyond
Gifted.
Rare.

The struggle to awaken
We more than I
I more than they
Aware

          Do and Dare!

Taipei taxi twilight
      young sons sung
                 101

I'm not a bourgeoise industrialist
I am a Markson Man
Not much. Not much.
Do the best I can

Rainy Night in Georgia
Rain in Bangkok too
Bladerunner 2049
Monsieur Albert Camus

In my solitude
Lonely as the rain
Rick Steves in Europe
Barcelona, Spain

Women out of reach
Life itself is pain
La Florida the Land of Flowers
Rode the Downbound Train

                  Tray aya ayain!

Neil Young comes from the motorcycle
Entranced, entranced - I walk directly to
Rock n' roll is here to stay
TDW

The king is gone but not forgotten
Indigeneity
First Nations in Canada
Totem poles creatively

Tecumseh in Ohio
Thomas Builds-the-Fire
Quetzalcoatl, the feathered serpent
Alex I admire

I ride the Tucson Train
Chicago in the snow
Father Greeley freely
Blackie Ryan lo!

                  On we go ...

I'm gonna read Knife
Book by Salman Rushdie
His is an interesting life
Alas and alack for him

Such a pretty church
England, lovely England
Mr. C.S. Lewis
In Florida long ago

America is corrupt
I have corruption too
Pondicherry Zoo
No real hope for me

Episcopaliens!
Walk in Purple Rain
Downbound, Downbound Train
I drift, I drift toward death

                quiet breath

maybe meaningless life
    I endure amidst such strife
              little joys, my three boys...

                          gratefulness.

From one perspective mysticism
From another mental illness
Listen to the doctors?
Listen to the priests?

If I am a shaman
Born too late
I sing for the forgotten
Vegetarian my feast

I just cannot find Her
She slips away at night
Her dress is black and white
My tears fall like Purple Rain

Santa Rosa knows ya
So does Toledo, Ohio
Boston to Buenos Aires
I take the Downbound Train

     Downbound Tray aya ayain!

Wishing to be understood
Knowing that I'm not

Desperate prayers at night
For my troubled brother Scott

Emily in Amherst
Her biography I've got

No coward soul
White dress drama plot

                What?

The bipolar and the poetry are connected
And I've read David Markson
Several thousand times
Obsessive yes
Confessive too

Socrates was right
Life is a disease
Death is ...

Twilight Blue.

Seattle Emergency Housing Service
The poetry of Thich Nhat Hanh

My Jesuit Volunteer Corps friends
Long ago still lingers on

Ethiopia and Somalia
The ferry boats and beyond

Water, skyline, mountains
Blue twilight, grey-green dawn

I like my mysteries unresolved
I read and wander quiet campus

Chaos means no problem solved
Solitude is where my lamp is

                 Hitch Hikin'!

Spoke with Mike today
While he cut my hair
He has been to Athos
Says I look like I'm from there

Webb telescope
Launched on Christmas Day
Infinite Universe?
Star Child may

Earth child might
My children can
Stay with me at night
Lonely aging man

      Cam Cam I Am!

Wordsworth with his daffodils
For me it’s fireflies

Lately I’ve been watching
Deep blue the twilight skies

Bioluminescence
A word I highly prize

Green trees, soft yellow lights
Wondrous strange before my eyes

A1A Beachfront Avenue

(I learned to drive on A1A
But in Satellite Beach
Not Miami)

desperation, isolation, endurance
             learning to wait
             destiny and fate

The pay isn't very good
But the work is steady

I pick up the Maze Runner
I too am a Thomas

It is for my children
I try to keep my promise

Eliade knew the Labyrinth
He wrote of the Ordeal

Immature poets borrow
Mature poets steal

For the Commonweal.

My qualyxians, my less than quiet mind
       waking, walking, wondering
            Will I ever finally find?

The joys those boys have given me
          snowfall and sweet sunshine

Dear God, prayers full of protection
                   women curious and kind.

Gratitude for my son tonight
Gratitude despite the dread
I hope he will remember me
When I am long gone dead

Not much hope for the Americans
But I like the USPS
Soon time to go
Off like a prom dress

Her hair was really beautiful
A kind of cinnamon brown
Silence in the Night
Not a man of much renown

        Oxford Town! Oxford Town!

Ooooooooo Growin' Up!

The depression is like a weight
Pins me to the bed
What does it matter?
I'll be forever dead

Female fantasies
Runnin' round my head
She probably couldn't help
Sky goes purple-red

Finding them gone
Dublin, Ohio
Lukenbach, Texas
O me o myo!

Emily alone
David Markson, New York City
When she was 17
Gentle, feminine, pretty

                  Pretty

Nightdrive, thrilled alive
    her kiss in misty rain
     Downbound Train!

Up ahead some stormy weather
Gratitude and prayers for Heather.

                         patientia

According to Smoke Signals

unwelcome thoughts
gimme a different brain
never been to Heaven
never been to Spain

my son starts a new school
Trump circles the drain
Life is Suffering
Pain on pain on pain

          Diane Lane

it’s the sounds I think I like
       and Kells near a Place called Pike
                 and the Antelope Canyon hike...


                                windwater

Regrets are not very pleasant
Sadness in the night
Much I cannot change
Many things don't work out right

The feminine mystique
Smile, voice, hair
Yes, the lady parts
I'd like to do her there

The Buddha abandoned his marriage
I can understand
Toledo Witherells
Sage of the Shakya clan

Thai motorcycle taxis
Som tam from the street
Buddhamind in Bangkok
Christ in everyone I meet

             dancing feet

Willie Wonka
Wakan Tonka
     Charlie!

I write Long Live Harry Chapin!
I get a little like
Walnut Heights, Ohio
I learn to ride a bike

Decades, decades later
I first see Modern Man
Tributes due to Harry
He did the best he can

YouTube is a rabbit hole
Holds a Shooting Star
We truly miss you, Harry
Holy! Ms. Pat Benatar

All my life's a circle
Twilight in my car
Reality only just a word
Harry, how right you are

                   Are!