astrobiological care
highwater everywhere
       aliens aware?

light rain splittering in headlights
       memories - the Bangkok night
                  shunyata insight

The Dark Lord is Rising
In the SouthEast, Frodo.

All his mind is bent upon it.

The Dark Lord and the Ring:

They are one.

Providence is inherently ambiguous
Says the military man in the Nation

Abraham Lincoln would doubtless agree
The Divine Purpose beyond revelation

So would sorrowful Soren Kierkegaard
Who knew terror of teleological suspension

If God is, then I think She is Hidden
(You won't find her at the Republican Convention)

Wind all day
Rain comes tonight

Conversation
Helps me fight the fright

My sons at play
True delight

Protector, stay
One Dark Knight

The predatory terror in the natural world
Yes, it frightens me
Tigers in the forest
Tiger sharks in the sea

Her hair was long and brown
She whispered erotically
I kissed her at the beach
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I'm mostly vegetarian
But I do eat tuna and salmon
O, ye Americans!
You can't serve God and Mammon

Buddhamind in Bangkok
Women in Tai Chi
Motorcycle taxis
Bangkok: Sanuk Di.

        Sanuk Di!

Arcade Junior High School
Sacramento, California
Mr. Katz teaches me to write
The 5 paragraph essay

He also invites me
To play on the AAU travel team
We head to Phoenix for the tournament
John Thompson is also there

Dis be dat Cay, eh Timothy?
I like Coach Katz's intensity
Insists that you do your very best
But never insults, never abuse

Years later
Mark and I see Sacramento State play
Close game, but they get the W
Go Hornets!

                    Viva Sacramento!

Dance me to the end of Love
like loving Leonard Cohen

I too see the stars above
And Babylon am knowin’

Dance me through the panic
Dance me through the pain

Dance me through bright White Nights
And through the Purple Rain

Dance me with the ones I love
Intensely and Insane!

I can't really stop writing
But I have tried. I have tried.
Mr. Markson spoke troubling truths
George W. Lied

St. Augustine was from Africa
His mother was Berber
Why did God create flies?
Spider-Man deserver

Jefferson Davis
Is Miles Morales's father
I have 3 sons
She has two daughters

Baltimore, like Chicago
One Dark Knight
Thank you kindly, James
I still see 2 green lights

           I still fight

alienation sets me running
alienation, December drumming
doesn’t work, but puzzling strumming

alien nations - could they be coming?

Decades of religious searching
But it just did not quite take
Still San Francisco Zen
Lady of the Lake

I like the way French sounds
I've been to New Orleans
Florida is Ignorance
Rothko blues and greens

Democracy is demagogues
Turn off your huge tv
Tidal pools in Monterrey
And a quiet library

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Life along the Liffey
Riverruns and keeps on running

In this misty musical city
I keep playing, praying, punning

Postmodernity arrives
I reJoyce and am not shunning

Though much is taken, much abides
Including silence, exile, and cunning

Babette beauty heedin’
Joe Gideon and Angelique pleadin’
Karen Eifel readin’

both blessing and brain bleedin’

The Great Mughals
      The Stansted Inn
             Nadia and I speak
                     Research to begin
                               Names for Fame
                                        Poetry from within


                    Starlight wandering
                            and Encounterin’

the name thing keeps on happening
but I know not what it means

perhaps it’s apophenia
but it’s curious as a dream

happening in the outer world
not only in my mind

is it true like in Apocalypse
what we seek is what we find?

then love is what I wish
for your beloved Dead and mine

and comfort for the living
in this world of strange design

In China, 666
Means things go smoothly

My time in Taipei
Did behoove me

To learn from others
Love foreign movies

Yangmingshan
(feeling groovy)

Said Elie Wiesel.

the sacred truly weird
   all we’ve hoped and feared
                  ambiguous uncleared
                           frightening when neared


What does it now hold dear?

3:40 and I'm awake
Nightshift in my mind
Marvin Gaye, callooh! callay!
Please be a friend in time

Anxiety attacks
I fight on and struggle through
River Eden in the mist
I'm Carolina blue

Try to get to Halloween
Waiting on a friend
Maybe no one understands
Maybe just pretend

But maybe baby lightning strikes
My words they touch her soul
Mystery in history
We live to rock n' roll

                 We stroll.

I said deer come at night
But today they came by day

Blessings be to Bucharest
Wait upon Taipei

Still to do my best
Say what I must say

Then to take my rest
For Alex please I pray

      gracias xie xie

Yes, Mr. Joyce,
A nightmare from which
We now are trying to awaken

The Americans lost their country
By malice overtaken

History as horror story
genocidal, godforsaken

Silence, exile, and cunning
Finnegans, we must waken!

I would like to be important
To the English language
I was once an English teacher
Fairfax. Reno. Taipei.

Oxford at twilight
Dublin bus
Gamla Stan
San Francisco. xie xie

Long live Lina and Doon!
Egress
Awakening
Californ I A

Birdsong
Whalesong
Ping Pong
Shakespeare play

                   Cordelia!

agnostic is not gnostic
which is to say, I don’t know

unusual things have happened
but maybe brain biochemistry told me so

yet some things I can’t explain
so puzzled I proceed and slow

I’m looking and I’m listening
in heavens and on earth, Horatio

Help me good down grateful
Not bitter, not afraid

Help them in the darkness
Help them where games are played

Trains still crisscross Europe
Asia still has rains

Hopeful thoughts still make their way
Through hopeful human brains

A little happiness
In whatever time still remains

I pray to the protective spirits
Spritely Peter Pan
Please keep him calm
I'm no fancy Dan

From the terror that comes at night
And the arrow that flies by day
Beware the Jabberwock
My son callooh! callay!

To sleep perchance to dream
To dream in peace of love
Thank you Father Greeley
Thank you Andy Dove

Sunny Italy
Courage in the fear
Un pequito basketball
3 dear deer

          Aqui. A sea. Hear here.

Europa Report from Ecuador
               Raven savin' - Nevermore
                          sacrifice - what is it for?




                              discoveries

Magic, St. Patrick, the Tragic
        Madonna against Camille Paglia
                     Like a Prayer still in the air
                        Coincidences quite curious ...
              

              the Cloud of Unknowing
      or anima mundi somehow showing?

Wolfgang Pauli to Neils Bohr
Expecting to be rebuffed:
You probably think these ideas are crazy.

To which Neils Bohr:
Unfortunately, they are not crazy enough.

3:17
Susan Darlene

Darlene Love
Blue sky above

The Pope goes green
I taught tweens

Brown moves between
Can you see what I mean?

maybe mystically connected to Mark
              alas, encroaching comes the dark
                        so many memories in so many parks!


                                    visions and decisions.

At Georgetown the poem drops
Thinkin’ Lincoln lops
Coincidentia Oppositorum ops...

3 weeeks later, I converse with cops.

The next day in the Washington Post
This editorial from a rabbi:

Elie Wiesel wouldn't shed a tear
But would God?

UNC MRC
not the first time film
not the second
maybe the third:

words, Roxanne, words!

The gods of basketball
Reward as they see fit
Me alone for hours
Banking twilight blue

Coach Katz he was my teacher
Passionate. Intense.
Taught me how to write
Sacramento Zoo

Dis be dat Cay
Eh, Timothy?
Son in Santa Rosa
Ever ancient, Ever new

A little Casa Roble
A little Del Campo
A little Kennedy
A little love for you

When he leaves, the sadness returns
Fatherhood from a distance
52 and solo
My poems my resistance

Life doesn't proceed as planned
Time is the Cross
Time is also our only chance
Bruce Springsteen is the Boss

Concert in Louisville
My brother and my sons
Mark Rothko chapel
I'm the lonely one

Agony with women
I'll probably die alone
I think I've gone soul swimmin'
The Whale! The mail! Oh Rome!

According to John Steinbeck

One day I'll disappear
Find me already gone
Whisper in your ear
Surely, She's the One!

Hold my loved ones dear
Gentle steps ahead
Courage in the fear
Soon I will be dead

                      Ole!

So the docs say I have an anxiety disorder
Just cannot relax
Hope at my grandma's house
Hope at Uncle Jack's

I hope my children don't get it
Hope to die in peace
Would like to see Istanbul
More than Ancient Greece

Basketball tonight
Hotel room is quiet
He and I and hoopin'
Astronauts will fly it

Exoplanets spin
Astronomers find water
Big Fish swims away
Nobody ever caught her

                 Blue!

brown bodies and basketball
         twilight blue, night after all
                  yellow moon comes to call...

                           summer beauty
                        then autumn’s Fall

For God's sake, kid, keep it short!

basketball my meditation
        solitude my soul staycation
               only silence seeks elevation ...


                             Exoplanets!

Life creates a little while
Death destroys forever

Wherever you go, there you are
Grey day May day weather

Cycling sunlit Stockholm
All of us together

Second girl I ever kissed
In California: her name was Heather.

Sunset in San Francisco
Shabu Shabu we all ate

Dogen through the nighttime
Alone to meditate

I return from hospitalizations
Destiny, not Fate

Fall 7 times
Rise up 8.

Madison and Mason si
But Qualyxian the Quest
Rendezvous with Destiny
Gonna do my level best

Xiao gives me Chinese food
I say xie xie ni
Mr. Bill Porter
Fo Guang Shan to see

Lunch at Cinco de Mayo
Alex in Tucson
What the hell's a Hoya?
We in Gamla Stan

Mason in the CAA
Colonial Assassination Association
On my knees to pray
Plus a little echolocation

         Mr. Wayne: Good luck.

Saw my two oldest tonight
              Forward!
                 hope

At times I've been too angry
And I look back with regret

I want to be like Pascal
Oui, my Wager bet

Truth is Stranger than Fiction
Ms. Pascal a true reminder

Music is the highest truth
I'd go the whole wide world

            Just to find Her!

It had to be poetry
Just had to be
One morning we went cycling
By the Baltic Sea

Met a man in Dublin
He said meant to be
Saw the Book of Kells
With my children 3

             silent plea