Moments of silence
Quiet
Lost in my destructive mind
Thinking about what happened
Scared
Of what will happen next
Can't get out of my mind

Doors clank
Keys jingle
Walk into a room
Scared to death
This is when i'm a physco
Final destination the psychiatric ward

Scared of love
Scared of hate
Don't deal in lies
Can't handle
Another loss
Go away
Before i have you first

Going downstairs
Dad passed out drunk on the couch
Walking home from school
The kitchen awaits
The binge monster who is hiding
In the cupboards
Go to school
Being drowned by opinions
And strangled by anxiety
Who says
Silence is safe
The weekend  
Diet Dr. Pepper
Filling my undeserving stomach
Eat when i'm told
Boundaries have risen
Parents going their separate ways
In my room
In my escape
Books

Tired
Tired of being sick
Tired of being tired
Tired of being weighed down
By the weight of the world
I'm sick and tired
Of being imperfect
I'm sorry
I don't understand myself

Babies screaming
Trying to attain their needs
While trying to console myself
You cant take care of another
Human being
When you can't even feed yourself
Emotionally unstable mother
I'm sorry baby

People ask
Do you want to recover?
It's complicated
I say
No one will understand
Unless they go through
This hell themselves
Innocent souls damaged
Hearts broken
Bones deranged
You'll never understand
What it's like
To live day to day
With the devil
Attached to your hip