Why does it hurt
I want to be mad
At something
Anything
But I'm not
Instead
It just hurts

Gentle giant.
I sit in the oasis of your shade.
I peel your bark, and
it is like skin.
Transparent.
I rub your skin between my fingertips and feel calm;
I feel your energy.  
You are a healing tree.
When I sit in your shade,
I feel peace and contentment.
However, your song is one of despair,
and so sometimes,
when I sit beneath your limbs,
I lament.
I hurt and I feel
for all things that have passed.

Black Widow

I pity the fool
that falls in love with me.

I'm sorry you got tangled in my web.
Yes, I cast it,
and I was looking for you.

And now I'm just going to collect you
like the others.
Store you for now.
Devour you later.

And then I'll start over.
Move on.
Cast a new web.
Find the next one.

Watch for me,
carefully now.
Watch for me in the shadows.

...but instead, we chose to be lovers,
and that
was the beginning of our end.
Laughter
turned to bitter tears
and cruel words.
The comradery so quickly
became incompatibility.
What was once so fruitful
became barren.
Desolate.
And so we both went our own ways,
lonely and hurt.
Searching.
What fools to attempt such a thing
when
we could have just been
friends.

When I Look at You

I see love.
I see
beauty.

God, how I love you.
Such
warmth, strength, and loyalty.

It emanates from your soul.

You were meant for me,
and I,
was meant for you.

This love,
this love is
everlasting.  

I
will
love
you
always
and
forever.

What is this feeling.
Why is it back.
Why does it come with such
emptiness.
I would say that I feel nothing
But that wouldn't be true
Because I miss you
And there is a lump in my throat
Because I can't say
All of the things that I long to tell you.
I know there are tears hiding  behind my eyes.
That hold every emotion I have for you.
Why I feel this way today
I don't know.
It happens every now and then
On varying levels
But why today
Of all days
Is one of the worst
I don't know.
I suppose
my body
my mind
All of me
Feels incomplete
without you
i miss you
i love you

I love the sounds
That come to me
From you
Through my headphones
You typing
You talking
Your words
lulling me to sleep
Filling my dream with
Nothing
but you

What it means to be human
Is something that I know all to well
Even now
Sitting here
I can feel my heart
my heart beating
my heart keeping me together
tearing me apart
I've heard that the heart
Is a gateway for emotions
Do not ask me if this is true
For I do not know
But if by chance it is
Can someone
anyone
ANYTHING
Tell me how to make it stop
because all of the beating
and fluttering
and skipping
Is making me go insane