I cant hold back
I have to attack
This negativity
Inside of me that
Is building a
Beat as it climbs
I cant rewind my
My mind from the
Negative as I testament
I cant deny this feeling
That keeps burning in me
In me
In me
Stay Damaged
Stay Damaged
I got to find
That inner fight
For the light
Or stay Damaged
Stay Damaged
As I free flow this
Time I feel I cant
Break free
Of this Damage
This Damage
The only thing
That can heal my
Heart is the light
That is just
Staring to spark
As I become
Less Damaged
Less Damaged
Cant give up the
Fight for the light
So that others can
Becomes less damaged
We have to help each other
To stay in positivity
Healing each other
In this free flow positive
As we move forward
In life trying to
Heal and create
Less Damage
For the earth
Less Damage
For each other
Less Damage
For ourselves
Less Damage
For our family
Less Damage
Less Damage.

Hey baby,
I thought I should write you one before you forget my handwriting. I know you probably be reading this as you pack in a hurry or at the airport or thousands of kilometers up in the sky.
  The last two weeks have been the best of moment’s l have had in the last two years. For a moment again, my body calmed down my heart felt warm again and l was genuinely happy.
   Before you came there was so much l wanted to tell you but for the moment you landed in my arms our hearts talked to each other, so calm and beautiful that l just wanted to hold you forever and stop time so that you remain in my arms.
   Today you told me something that made me feel bad that you would think that way. The fact that l flirted with some chics sometime back and for a moment you think that you are not first in my life and world. I made a mistake and a lot of errors of judgement that l am really really sorry about baby. Truth is you are beyond first in my life. Even before l see me, l see you. I would lose myself anytime in fighting for you and giving you the best that this world has to offer.
   You are going back to school and l always do pray for you and all the works of your hands that you will be successful in it. Education lays the foundation and l want the strongest foundation for you. I always got your back and even when you feel like giving it up, remember you doing it for me too ***.
   My heart smiles when l think that it has been five years now, we have smiled, laughed, argued, fought and done everything that could possibly have been done but above all we have loved and stood together. Many things and people have tried to come between us but we know better baby. Only fools don’t learn from their mistakes and we definitely are not fools.
    I wrote this with mixed emotions, happy because l could write a book about the love of my life and sad because today you travel back for a couple of months without physical contact. I have stayed with you long enough to truly know your heart, to see you for who you really are. The simple, shy, beautiful and loving girlfriend behind the loud and bubbly personality people see.
     Many times we take the ones we love for granted forgetting that despite forever love, life ends at some point and the little time we have on earth should be spent treasuring them. I treasure you my best friend, soul mate and love of my life.
   The sun is setting as l write this but though time lapses, good and bad times come and go, my love for you will always be pure and steadfast. Keep well baby, remember God in everything you do and always strive to be better than you were yesterday. Travel safe keeper of my dreams. I always will love you

poetry
is the ability
to strike someone once
and have the sound resonate
inside them forever

prose
is describing the sound
with more resonances

So you want to be kind, and all I ask is for a piece of your life.  I immediately jump off the cliff of conclusions and want what I simply cannot have. Please, whatever you decide to do, remain as open and honest as you can make me believe. And when you decide to put me down, will you lay me down easy?

For moments at a time in the short hours we've shared, I've fallen down the side of a mountain of despair and have enclosed my heart even though you have already been there. I cannot hide from you because you know me too well. Hidden deep in the lines, had you planned to deceive me?

I feel no less than a fool than to have opened my heart. Ashamed and embarrassed I showed you too much and now even you can see through my veil; and you know places in my world to the smallest detail. If I broke down like glass and said you really did hurt me, in an attempt to desert me, would you believe me?

We shared fragments of new beginnings that flourished in its own light. We were the food in our own bellies and the sun in the night. For every emotion raging inside you provided a safe place for my poet to hide.  But as rejection sinks into the skin, I feel the raging storm within me.  The storm we had created intently, and yet, evidently, I am standing alone in the left over rain wondering; why did you leave me?

I am utterly and totally (not limited to completely) dazed and confused in a dark alley of emotions in the midsection of an endless tunnel that leads to possibilities of the unknown. I have already made my choice; I have already chosen my path miles back, and I have traveled long enough to know that I am in far too deep to change my mind. I touch the walls for a message from the blind but even they can't lead me. And so with no other choice but to step forward into the vast night, I pray on the Lord to comfort me and to guide me, in hopes  that the demons within my own soul may never find me. And when all is said and done I hope I can find my way back into what I know, back into what feels right; back into the light.

The world has gone crazy
There is turmoil every where
Divisions all around
It seems like people
Are going backwards
Falling darker into the night
Falling deeper into the void
Living with hate in their hearts
Living at the brink of nothing
Living with depression
Living with despair
Without an ounce of grace
Moving further away from the light
Every thing goes these days
Without any sense of control
Or consequences
People have lost their minds
And it seems to get worst every day
But even through all the craziness
Even through all of the chaos
Even through all of the darkness
There is a part of me that is excited
Excited to see what is to come
We live on the brink
There is a chasm before us
We are just about to jump
And we are about to cross
Even as crazy as life might seem
There is still hope, love, grace, and mercy
And there are still miracles hiding in the dark
We just have to know where to look
To see the goodness and the light
That is waiting for us to accept it
To acknowledge that its there
Once you do life takes on a different tone
It takes on a whole new beauty and purpose
You start to see just how wonderful and crazy times
We are living in and you can become excited to
Living with light and grace and hope
And learning how to spread that sense of excitement
To everyone you meet

I am so nervous and excited all at once
I start school tomorrow
I hope I can navigate my way through the site for my on line classes
I hope I will quickly learn what I need to
I yearn to attain new knowledge
I will need to get more organized
I can not disguise that I am not a morning person
I hope with my morning cup of coffee I can make it through
I will need to dust off my thinking cap and resist the temptation to take a nap
I will wipe the cobwebs off my mind and armed with determination everything should work out fine  
I am grateful for the new adventure