The heart is
a heavy burden
for anyone
no matter how strong
they think they are.

Not all goodbyes
are considered a loss.
Rather than see it as a separation,
See it as an opportunity
to start anew.

The sun doesn't stop shining
just because we stop looking.
Why should you stop writing
if you think no one is reading?

You and I
are different people now.
Maybe if we met again
it would be like meeting
for the first time
all over again.

Take your eyes off yesterday
and look to me, the future.
Walk towards me, run if you must,
but do not be afraid of me.
Do not doubt yourself or I
and don't let yesterday hold you back.
Let go of the past, of all the pain,
the loss and the darkness and
do not look back.
You are close now,
I can feel you already,
come to me, the future.

I close my eyes and
summon you into a dream.
Even if it's for a little while,
let's pretend it is real.

The sunflowers
whisper your name
as they spell it in the fields.
They gently sway
as the scent is carried in the wind
and I am once again reminded
of your love.

By midnight,
I watched you fall
asleep,
as you watched me fall
in love.

I regret to inform you,
but I'm not home anymore.
I have left that place and all
the memories that remained.
One day I hope to forget
all the pain stored inside
the place I called my home.
Indeed, I have moved away from you
and I am not looking back.

But I have never
cared about taking myself
so seriously

4:26 PM
25/3/22

Dear Aria;
Merry Christmas;
I don't know how I got this far
without you but I
will keep going
for you.
I miss you.
I love you.

I am still learning
to give what you made me feel-
love and all that's nice

19/5/22

This ship is going
to sink despite the fact that
I can hold my breath

6:26 PM
15/8/21

How time flies
when my lips meet yours.
I close my eyes and
time does not
matter anymore.

Words come and go but
feelings do not change, for they
remain fossilized

10:50 AM
24/9/22

Sometimes its best to
forget when remembering
is just too painful

7:52 PM
25/8/22

Dear diary;
my life is far
from normal
but not so strange that I
should fear what
lies ahead.

I guess I wasn't
built for this whole love thing but
that's okay with me

3:48 PM
5/11/21

You are the sun
shining upon me,
a withering sunflower,
from dawn until dusk.
We dance in the sunlight
and dream in the twilight
and flourish every day
underneath your brilliance.
So keep on beaming your magic
down upon this Earth
and make your alluring spell
last forever.

There is a
black hole where
this heart once stood.
Even this power house
exhausts all of its love and spirit
over time
only to collapse
under the weight of
the world.

Acknowledgement does
not equal attachment and
most of the time it is inevitable
to get lost in one or more
of these states of mind.
It is inevitable not to miss
what you once attached
yourself to.

If you make a heart
your home then surely you too
will end up homeless

8:10 PM
18/7/22

I have found havens
all over the world where I
can escape my skin

10:57 AM
14/9/21

In this life there are
people who like and dislike you.
It has taken me too long to let the latter go,
and to understand that there is
little you can do to change that.
All you can do is let them go,
move on, and live with that fact
because not everyone is going to like you.
Understand that it is their loss
and that tripping over yourself
for others will never bring
you happiness nor
your true self.

Fingers on my skin-
your heavenly touch sure feels
like a sin sometimes

1:32 AM
2/8/21

I will no longer
know anything about you
and you will no longer
remember my name.
I will no longer
cross your thoughts
and you will no longer
dream about me.
I will no longer
share your warmth
and you will no longer
hold these hands.

When are you coming home?
I am still in the same place you abandoned me.
It is not distance that separates us,
but you who drives the rift.
How do you not see it?
The longer we isolate,
the more we suffer.
Are you happy like this?
Lost in separation?
It is not only I that you have lost,
but this family,
this love,
yourself...

You will never
find the same love
twice.

Our story may have
been painful but it was my
favourite one to read

8:49 PM
16/9/23

I remember the memories
you left on my plate.
To this day,
they keep me satisfied
and leave me wanting seconds.

The burden of hope
is bound to take its toll
on me,
yet it is all that
keeps me going-
such a dangerous thing
hope can be.

How can you say you're
empty when the universe
is inside of you?

4:16 PM
18/5/22

To move on
is not to find someone new-
to move on
is to have no one
but still love
yourself.

I find myself
in the same winter grave
year after year.
Lucky for me,
it's not too cold
for me to claw my way
back into the warm arms
of summer.

Are you drifting from me?
Or am I drifting from you?
The seas are against us and I fear
I will soon be a dot on your horizon,
the same dot at the end of a question mark
that may be forever left unanswered.

Some people stay
because they truly
understand you while
others leave for
the exact same
reason.
This is one of
life's greatest
ironies.

I guess I
will always be
writing about you
even though you
might not see
these words.

You placed your heart
upon my world and
a thousand sunflowers bloomed.

Dear diary;
I am growing tired of this mind,
tired of overthinking, of the endless cycle.
"When will this day end? This week, this month, this year?"
I grow tired of society and their norms and expectations.
I want to enjoy life again, to be free, not just endure,
to go through the motions again and again.
I try to savor the good times like a rose,
to smell it, and see it in all its beauty,
until it withers away.
Indeed, I am tired of this winter,
and all the dreariness it brings.
I want to live.

People come,
and people go-
it's one of the surest things
in life.
So why is it so hard for me
to accept that?

She's a sunflower
minding her own in a field
of thorns and thistles

6:41 PM
12/3/21

The sea
is shallow,
as is the Grand Canyon
when compared to how deep
my love is
for you.

Why do we feel so
alone when billions of us
also feel alone?

4:13 PM
19/1/21

You should aim to be
kind and loyal but not at
the cost of yourself.

4:18 PM
23/3/24

I don't think
I could ever fit in.
Sometime I feel I was born
to walk alone...
and that is okay.
I have known solitude
all my life and
thought some people will
never understand...
that is okay.

Dear diary;
looks like it's
another night of
staring at the guitar,
wishing and wondering if
these **** hands can translate
the beautiful chaos
raging in this head.

Solitude is not my enemy,
Solitude is more of a pet.
I call it over in times of need-
it comes to me, sits by my side
and makes for good company.
Sometimes solitude will bite
to remind me of just how lonely
the solitary life can be.
But thanks to solitude,
I see life for what it is.

Hi,
I know
it's been a while-
have you been okay?
It's okay if you're not okay,
you don't have to be strong
all the time.

Darkness calls me
at midnight and takes pity
on this lonely soul.
The night turns cold and
the shadows return after
another busy day of
distracting myself in light,
out of their reach
if only for
a little while.

In a world
full of weeds and thorns,
there are sunflowers like you
that bring beauty and bliss
into an otherwise bleak world.
Few are so lucky to witness
these sunflowers-
Truly, I have been blessed
by your light.