Sometimes it's okay to disassociate, to tune out the world and be sad. Go for a walk, put on some music, do what you need to do to ease the pain. Remember, there is no rush for this is what it means to be human.
The demons never really leave, they only slumber in the dark corners of the mind. They do not leave, do not let them fool you, they will hide and wait for the right moment to wreak havoc upon the soul once again.
****, is it December already? I've only just caught up on all these feelings, these changes and days flown by. They have all come and gone like a stranger- and now it is ending.